overwhelmed

I am... scared I'm scared to stand out But I don't fit in I'm scared I talk too loud So I sit quitly I'm scared to speak up or out Because I don't want to be shut down I'm scared to share my opinion Because I don't want it to be wrong I'm scared to retaliate Because I'm scared of confrontation I am... afraid I'm afraid to let people in Because I've be let down too many times I'm afraid to share how I feel Because I'm afraid you won't understand, you won't feel the same way I'm afraid of my past For the way it defines me I'm afraid of the future Because I'm afraid of its uncertainty I am... tired I'm tired of people asking how I am Because I don't know anymore I'm tired of the phrase "I don't know" Because I really want to know I'm tired of thinking Because it never seems to help I'm tired of talking Because I'm running out of things to say I'm tired of being tired Because everything makes me tired I'm tired of being me But who elses can I be What else can I do I have to keep going But I want to stop How can I stop When I don't know what it is that I'm stopping!