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I am no good. No good at everything. Can't lay in bed all day even with depression. Can't fullfill my eating disorder to a point where I need to be hospitalized even though I want to. Because I want to be seen. So instead I cut, cause maybe people will care when they see how bad it is going. But I am no good at cutting either... So maybe I need to go to sleep and never wake up again. Maybe that is wat I am good at. And maybe people will finally see the broken me that is hidden behind my always smiling face. But I know for sure that even if it is a case of life and death, I am no good at it... Will I ever be good enough??