Sleepless

12 AM I am awake in my bed I should be sleeping, resting for the day to come But I can't I can't stop thinking about every mistake I have ever made The rain is starting to drizzle

1 AM I should be sleeping Instead, I think about him and how I wish he was here I think about whether or not its worth it to be so many miles away I think about if he would love me the same way in person The rain is really starting to come down now

2 AM I shouldn't be awake right now I keep thinking of how I let my parents down Of every dream they had for me and how I crushed it with a few simple words I think about how my dad looks at me with disappointed eyes and a tired heart It's pouring now

3 AM I have to go to sleep now I can't keep staying awake like this The shadows in the darkness are becoming more real The crawling is sinking deeper into my skin The dark thoughts are becoming louder and stronger It sounds like there's a hurricane​ outside now

4 AM