the teenager you always wanted to be — Summary

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i would let you braid my pretty pink hair

i wouldn't dare tell you it'll all be okay but id say it'll start to get better one day i'll hold your hand and cover your ears kiss your head, wipe away your tears i'm nothing like what you imagined but i hope you're not disappointed

there wasn't a finish line, never will be you pushed through 'cause you wanted a prize pretended to be happy so i'm not lonely and let everything eat you inside out but now i have days where i'm not faking just know, we don't have to fake it much more

you were wrong about so many little things the cake at my 17th birthday was delicious and i think my 18th will taste even better sometimes i will raise my hand in class i see your scars and i feel a little proud i'll live the rest of life scarred and not wounded and i promise you'll love your body one day you'll cut and dye your hair a thousand times and at some point you'll learn to love our smile

you were too young and didn't understand and i'm too young, and i don't understand there won't ever be a day of understanding sometimes people will just take what's not theirs it won't be your fault, not your fault, not my fault you won't deserve it, i didn't deserve it you're going to cry but it's going to be okay the scars will be ugly but i promise they'll heal

not everyone will end up leaving you people will love you and people will stay with you just close your eyes and start counting up the days you'll be the teenager you always wanted to be

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The speaker talks to their younger self, the teenager who is still hurting, and offers the comfort they needed back then. The tone is gentle and protective: holding a hand, covering ears, kissing a head. The speaker makes no big promises that everything will be fine. Instead they say things will "start to get better," and the poem suggests they are honest about what has changed. There are real birthdays now, a raised hand in class, and days when the happiness isn't faked.

The poem also admits what hasn't been fixed. The speaker is "too young" and still doesn't understand why people take "what's not theirs." The repeated "not your fault" reads like a reassurance the speaker is still learning to believe. Scars appear throughout, but they become something to be "a little proud" of rather than ashamed of.

The mood is tender, tired, and quietly hopeful. The closing lines turn the title's phrase into a promise.

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