11:46pm: Reoccurring Silent Storm — Summary

I'm frustrated. I'm frustrated at life. At reality. At change. I cried last night. As my personal rain quietly fell, I just laid in bed. Careful not to disturb my roommate. Careful to leave my thoughts in my head. Careful not to dial your number and express myself. I just wish you did not change so much. It was me and you. Against the world. Then you changed. We're still thick as thieves, but lately I find myself not liking you. Not you, per se. But the things you do. Hell, the things you make me do. I find myself smoking to calm my aggression. Why? Why do I put myself through this? Is this a typical feeling or is it just me?

As my silent storm lessens to a slight drizzle, I block out those questions Because this is not the first time Nor will it be my last...

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Late at night, the speaker lies in bed, upset about a relationship that has changed. It seems to be a close friendship, though the poem never says exactly who "you" is. Once it was "me and you against the world," and they are still "thick as thieves," but now the speaker struggles with how the other person behaves, and with what that behavior pushes the speaker to do, like smoking to calm down.

The central image is weather. The speaker's tears are "my personal rain," and the sadness is a "silent storm." Everything happens quietly, because the speaker doesn't want to wake a roommate or call the other person and say what they feel. That restraint makes the mood lonely and tense. The ending offers no resolution. As the storm shrinks to a drizzle, the speaker pushes the questions away, admitting this has happened before and will happen again. The tone is weary and resigned, more than angry.

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