«why are you everywhere i look?» — Summary

sarahRomantic

why are you everywhere i look? everyone i turn my head you're there

only reminding me of the person i cannot love. the person that cannot be mine. for they are the person i cannot love because they are my best friend. reminding me of them because you're the number they see the most as well.

do they think of me the same way? or do they think of someone else when they see you, the number we both can't seem to escape.

or are you just giving me false hopes.

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The speaker is caught in an unspoken crush on a best friend, and the poem follows how that feeling spills into everyday life. Someone, or something, keeps showing up wherever the speaker looks. The poem never names it, but the later lines point to a number, one the speaker and the friend both see constantly. Each time it appears, it pulls the speaker back to the person they feel they can't love, since loving a best friend risks everything the friendship already is.

The mood is restless and a little wistful. The questions pile up: does the friend think of the speaker when they see the number, or of someone else? The poem ends on a doubt, asking whether this repeating sign is just "giving me false hopes." That last line captures the speaker's struggle between wanting it to mean something and fearing they are reading too much into a coincidence.

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