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Walking with you to your place I can barely keep my legs straight Everything seems so hazy Except for you and your face

Make back to your bed Everything's spinning in my head Only thing that I see Is you climbing on top of me

"Stop, this isn't right", I protest when you kiss I want my first time to be special, not a memory I'll miss "Baby you're mine for the night", you say. Before continuing the plans you've made

This is wrong but feels so right This is wrong but feels so right Maybe if I let it happen it'll be alright Enjoy your body for the night

Next day I'm afraid Remembering your smiling face Feeling alone in my head Thoughts of you and I in bed

Avoiding you and all your friends I won't let that happen again This was so wrong but felt so right Being yours for that night What the hell is wrong with me What the hell is wrong with me

Trying to tell the ones I love They only laugh and say "yoo got you some" Feeling so lost, hurt and mad Nobody cares 'cause I'm just a man

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The speaker describes a night that begins in a drunken haze and ends in a sexual encounter they did not fully want. Walking to the other person's place, everything blurs except that face. In bed, the speaker says "Stop, this isn't right" and explains that they wanted their first time to be special. The reply, "Baby you're mine for the night," ignores that protest, and the plans go ahead anyway.

The repeated line "This is wrong but feels so right" shows the speaker's confusion, as if they are trying to talk themselves into accepting what is happening. The next day brings fear, shame, and a wish to avoid the other person and their friends. The question "What the hell is wrong with me" repeats, suggesting self-blame. The ending is the bleakest part: when the speaker tries to confide in loved ones, they laugh it off, and the speaker feels that nobody cares because they're "just a man." The mood is hazy, anxious, and finally lonely and hurt.

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