Again — Summary

fear always seems to be the destroyer of beautiful things, our beautiful thing was sewn in cobwebs and wrapped in silk. night after night there was happiness and joy, peace and comfort, but tonight i sleep empty. she's gone from my bed and I'm gone from her head. my world wants to stop, i want to crawl to my knees, but birds continue to chirp and the sun continues to rise and fall. over and over again. when will it end? i wish it'd screech to a halt, i wish there wasn't air to breathe. i can't stand this ache in my chest and i can't stand the words in my head. there was never love, it tells me. you were never good enough. i can still feel the warmth of her body from under the sheets. it tugs at my ankles, it wants me to come. but when i finally cave in, it's gone. the cold prickles my feet and I'm alone.

again.

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The speaker is grieving the end of a relationship, and the poem captures the first raw night alone. Early lines remember something delicate, "sewn in cobwebs and wrapped in silk," which was destroyed by fear. Now the bed is empty, and the speaker feels erased from the other person's mind as well as her bed.

What stands out is the gap between inner pain and the indifferent world. The speaker wants everything to stop, yet birds keep chirping and the sun keeps rising. A harsh inner voice adds to the hurt, insisting there was never love and the speaker was never good enough. Then comes the cruelest moment: the warmth of her body seems to pull the speaker back, but it vanishes the moment they give in, leaving only cold feet and silence.

The mood is bleak, tired, and quietly desperate. The single word "again" at the end suggests this loop of longing and loss may keep repeating.

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