The present absence — Summary

A present absence expands & contracts, hollow at the core as thin thoughts convinced that words can poison internal organs collapse into a pool of stagnant water where no light survives.

The days fold & fall away leaving only the faintest trace of what once existed…

grotesque

& never-ending, a thing somehow still alive, like a zombie convulsing on the floor in a room with an unlockable door; the Will conflicted, torn between hatred of daylight & fear of the night bringing tapeworms beneath the skin:

rip them out, one by one until the arms are nothing more than wet ribbons of red; tattered remains of flesh draped across bone.

Then wake up alone without hope that this will end the way it always does:

new meds, new promises

& the slow return of memories that always break your fall;

the pale shimmer

of phosphorescent ghosts.

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Wordsforghosts paints depression as a body-horror nightmare. The speaker describes an emptiness that swells and shrinks, a "present absence" that is there even though nothing is. Thoughts turn toxic and sink into stagnant water where no light survives. Days fold away, and the speaker feels like a zombie, still alive but twitching on the floor of a locked room.

The images get more violent as the poem goes on. The speaker imagines tearing tapeworms out from under the skin until the arms are "wet ribbons of red." It reads less like a literal scene and more like a picture of self-loathing and desperate, painful attempts to get free. Torn between hating daylight and fearing night, the speaker has nowhere safe to rest.

The ending is quieter and more weary. Waking alone, the speaker expects the same cycle: new meds, new promises. Memories return and "break your fall," a small comfort, though they appear only as pale, glowing ghosts. The mood is bleak, claustrophobic and exhausted, with a faint, haunted tenderness at the close.

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