Rishi Revolts — Summary

Jason RidpathContemplative

Parents wanted me to be a doctor or an economist.

They wanted me to be a somebody.

Somebody training never felt right.

I could see how my parents would fight.

How attached they were to the roles they played, they just couldn’t be who they wanted to be, who they really were, did they ever know their worth before the plane crashed into the earth.

For a while I could play along and I did maybe more as an homage then as a passion or as some rite of passage.

I could be Jim or Jack Jones.

I could be anything they wanted me to be.

At the core of the kernel, I wanted to be nobody.

Even now when I feel the weight of their essences urging me and guiding me.

I wanted love without conditions.

I wanted to be able to tame the rising sea of emotions inside of me.

I wanted and wanted but I rarely tried, hoping they would just fruit to life.

University couldn’t fill me and only made me feel more empty.

Made me feel further away from the one, made me question who I am and who I was. Cleaning was the only way to vacate my mind.

There was something special about this place.

The voice in my head laughs “It’s just a supermarket, kid!”

The tannoy calls me to aisle six.

An aisle filled with sick.

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The speaker, apparently named Rishi, looks back on the life his parents mapped out for him: doctor, economist, "somebody." He went along with it for a while, more out of respect than desire, and the poem suggests he could have played any part they handed him. But what he wanted was to be nobody, free of roles, and to be loved without conditions. He admits he wanted a lot and tried very little, hoping things would simply grow.

University left him feeling emptier, and cleaning becomes the one thing that quiets his mind. The supermarket feels special to him, even while an inner voice mocks it as "just a supermarket, kid."

The mood is restless and quietly sad, with flashes of dry humour. The short, plain lines make it sound like a confession. The final two lines drop the big questions about identity into a messy, ordinary moment: a tannoy call and an aisle "filled with sick."

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