Do You Only Exist for Me? — Summary

Does it make you nervous?

How someone so different can make you feel so loved?

Make you feel like you are more than enough.

Will I become the enemy because you can’t accept what you deserve.

Will I become the enemy because you don’t know your own worth.

If I blink would you leave me with memories.

If we sink could we live eternally.

Not as friends but as enemies.

I’d rather not waste the energy.

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Ridpath's poem is built around a question the speaker seems to be asking someone close to them: does being loved this much make you uneasy? The speaker is someone "so different" from the person addressed, yet able to make them feel "more than enough." The trouble is that the other person doesn't seem to believe it. The speaker worries about being cast as "the enemy" simply for offering love the other can't accept, or for seeing a worth they can't see in themselves.

The mood shifts as the poem goes on. It begins tender and a little hurt, then turns uncertain, even fatalistic, with the image of blinking and sinking, and the idea of living "eternally" together. Then comes the final line, "I'd rather not waste the energy," which sounds tired and guarded. The speaker seems to pull back, protecting themselves from a fight that may not be worth having. The poem leaves us with longing mixed with weariness, and no clear answer about whether the two will stay.

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