Dust — Summary

In my dream running after you, lungs aching as you rise above the shore on sudden wings, watching you grow smaller & smaller against the sky, I shout myself awake. It’s past four. A wind moves in the curtains, bringing the scent of rain.

I turn over, & something small & sharp pokes my cheek: the needle end of a breast feather from some long-dead goose has threaded a small hole in my pillow. I pull it out.

The darkness quivers with distant lightning. I lie awake, listening for the first rumble, the first random taps against the pane. Today, I think, I will take a broom to the stairs below the window where dust has settled in the corners of every step. An hour later, when the storm passes, the sky is already light.

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The speaker wakes at four in the morning from a dream of loss: someone is flying away, growing smaller against the sky, while the dreamer runs after them, unable to catch up. The shout that wakes them is the only way out of the dream. Who the person is, the poem never says, and that silence lets the ache stay open.

What follows is quiet and physical. A breeze brings the smell of rain, and a stray feather from an old pillow pricks the speaker's cheek. The feather, from a "long-dead goose," faintly echoes the dream's winged departure, but now the wings are reduced to something tiny and dead that can simply be pulled out. Then comes a storm, and the decision to sweep the dusty stairs. The mood is hushed and watchful, grief handled through small chores rather than speeches. By the time the storm passes, the sky is already light, suggesting the night, and perhaps the worst of the feeling, has been got through.

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