To stand there,
On the sidelines,
Hurts.
To watch,
As they beat you,
Burns.
To conceal,
All the anger,
Rage.
To try avoid,
Scarring you,
Again.
To put on a mask
To you,
Smile.
And hopelessly watch,
touch me again or say another word
i dare you
because the moment i feel
threatened
i will rip your throat out with my teeth
even if there was no threat at all
"Go sell yourself to someone else."
i've forgiven you for saying this, i really truly have.
it was said in a time of anger and spite,
bubbling out of your throat like vomit,
dousing your tongue with bitter regret once they left your mouth.
i understand this better than anyone.
but the words are still branded on my ribs,
following me everywhere i go,
and echoed a hundredfold more than the last second.
gosellyourself:needypatheticslutimpurevainweakbrokeconceited
i am haunted by these spiteful words that once spilled from your lips
like coughed up blood as it floods your lungs.
how many people have
i
haunted this way?
I need to buy a new mirror;
the last one broke when I punched it,
'cause I didn't like how I looked
when I first saw myself.
The last one broke when I punched it
and now my hand really hurts.
My actions were purely irrational,
but I couldn't help but smash it.
Now my hand really hurts,
because I couldn't help but smash it.
My actions were purely irrational
or so I like to tell myself.
I couldn't help but smash it,
'cause I didn't like how I looked;
or so I like to tell myself,
and now I need to buy a new mirror.
Anger is a feeling everyone has and few can surpress
Anger is the reason the world is so violent
Anger is all consuming
Anger is irrational and unintentional
Anger is cleansing but shameless
Anger is the cause of a feeling of numbness that obstructs your ability to acknowledge how hurt others are by your words or actions
Anger is a war that never ends
Anger is brainless and demanding while it lasts, but regretted once it ends
Anger is hard, cold, and lonely
Anger is using your mouth before your brain
Anger is a furious, thunderous storm of feelings you have to endure alone
Anger is life
Red
Depressing
Runs through my veins
Stabs me in the heart
Loves none
Fears less
Get it away,
out of my head
My mind,
is playing tricks...
Or is it?
Hurt
Fueled when they don't give up
My music,
diminishes,
yet amplifies it.
I hate that I have diabetes
I hate that I have anger
I hate that I have medical problems
I hate that my family teams up on me
I hate that my mom doesn't help me
I hate that noone doesnt help me
If I listened closely enough I could hear him coming,
I could feel his drunken anger in those moments when
He was swaying between seething and swinging
But it was the moments when the world was completely silent
That I learned to fear the most
The teardrops run down,
And fall of her nose,
She cries in dark corners,
Where nobody goes
You can follow the tracks,
From her eyes to her chin,
Years upon years,
Of letting them win,
And her eyes tell a story of anger and pain,
You think that she's happy,
But look again,
Her smile is now painted,
She's a master of disguise,
But you can see it all,
Just look into her eyes.
anger what good
the flower is angrier than i am
so is the blood
that rights & jerks in the ground
when i slice it with my rake
my daughter following
pulling crocus flowers
off the flagstone where the sudden freeze
left them
Longing, anger, rage
Feeling both desperate and boring
brilliant
'sunshiney'
day
I don't want it
I want
deranged jottings!
How to stop
envying
the beloved
the beloved's life?
Flat on back,
cursing the gods
silly head music: big cat claws
striking POW,
you play with me until this burning anger
claws its way out of my chest like a
dying heart ripped from its veins, an
inhuman roar hanging heavy in the air
and though it hurts to say this
i am nothing but a person without that anger
a tiny
insignificant
person
afraid of what occurs after the breakdown
afraid of the quiet emptiness of being alone
so even though you're toxic and rude and
completely, utterly unworthy
of my time
i stay