Trembling I feel this is going wrong,
In whispers, your voice calls me
But I don't want to hear it.
Will it ever leave my mind?
I thought we were on the same page
Feeling like we're different now
Different places, different stages.
People keep on how a perfect match we are
But truthfully I am not sure anymore
Maybe I'll change my mind, or maybe I won't
The bottom line seems blurry enough to act on blurry vision
One day it may be clear to keep moving forward.
I see you've been home
But again now you're gone
You said you'd let me know
In case I'd want to see you
But like every single time
I just believe your lies.
You tell me you want me
But it's just a game to you
Cause I'm tired of waiting for you
I'm done being ridiculed
I'm done waiting in the rain
I just want to see your eyes
Looking into mine, once more
But I'm done waiting for someone like you.
I don't know
If I'll ever let you go
You touched me
And suddenly I'm yours
But you're so cold
Feels like winter has come.
Everything we once had
Gone to waste by a single night
We both messed up
We made our bed
Now we lay in it.
All the things that we lost
All the roads that we crossed
Feel like hell since you've been gone.
What can I say?
I never would've guessed it.
Fingers intertwined
Eyes locked in mine
A beautiful warming smile
Only I could bring that out.
We were playing on the couch like kids
But we were both twenty-one.
How could I ever forget
The sound of your voice
The color of your eyes?
That gets me every time.
All those times we could've kissed
But for some reason we never did.
With your hand up on my neck
You didn't even press.
Just with one-touch
You could really light me up
I took the last train home
Mainly because it reminded me of
Countless sleepless nights
Watching the sunset
From your couch.
Now I don't know
Why I still call your phone.
Everytime I try
You decline
It's just so stupid
To think you'd ever be mine.
I can only dream of how you taste
How your hands feel on my body
But we're too far apart
Let the distance between us win
What more can I do
To see you again?
We won't talk for days
But everytime I break
I need to know how you are
And tell you how I've been
Lately it's been strange,
You seem so distant and distracted
While I'm still here feeling attracted.
Dark beach, brown eyes
Champagne and a bottle of wine
Fresh air, hold my hand
Let's just lay under stars
Can we stay here forever?
Where no one ever
Bothers me anymore
Baby, there's nothing better
And no one ever
Made me feel this way.
I know I can talk to you
You understand me
And that's what friends are for.
You can talk to me too
I know you need it,
That's what matters the most.
I try to fight the smile
Whenever you text me back,
This secret obsession is eating me alive
Why can't I tell you how I feel?
There's something deep inside of me
Preventing me from making a fool of myself.
Do you remember when we were trying to sleep?
Trying to get rid of my insecurities,
I held your hand like no one else
And tried not to lose myself
I'd always be there when you needed me
I knew you'd be there too.
I thought I was making a fool of myself
Getting dressed so we could leave
As soon as you came,
But you never did.
I thought you forgot about me
I really thought you did
I guess I was wrong.
If I love you, can I trust you?
If I see you, are you with me?
If I hear you, are you talking?
If I'm with you, would you leave me?
If I tried to help you, would you let me?
Feels so different,
Feels so distant.
I try to be there
But I get pushed away.