If I said I liked your eyes,
Would you smile?
If I said I liked your voice,
Would you smile?
If I told you your hair was fluffy,
Would you laugh?
Would you smile if I said a bad joke,
Or just stare at me?
I'd love to hear you laugh, by the way.
To hear you talk for hours.
You have the kind of voice perfect for reading.
It's very pretty.
Would this poem make you smile
If I shared it with you? Or maybe
You'd look away, embarrassed a loser found you cool?
In case you can't tell, I like you.
Can I ask you something,
If I'm louder,
Would you hear me,
And not ignore me,
Pay attention, and listen
If I pretend to be someone I'm not,
Will you notice me,
And look at me,
Instead of through me
If I'm bolder,
Will you see me,
Not someone battered and bruised
Just me as I really am,
If I am me,
Will you love me,
The little voices in my head
Remind me daily that I should be dead
The little whispers say I'm just biding time
With a life that's no longer mine
Memories I've tried to forget
Hardly ever resurface, I have no regret
A past that dark doesn't deserve to live
Fuck anyone who says to forgive
These little voices know me the very best
We've been through it all and beat every test
The devil even wonders why he can't claim me
But you can't reclaim something that's already yours, you see
A dark little plague that walks this Earth
I was cursed upon the day of my birth
The scars I have they come so readily
The fate I have rests just as heavily
A beautiful song,
Such a sweet melody.
Enchanting voices,
Leading to the sea.
A bottomless pit,
Filled with water.
A tranquil paradise,
Immersed in laughter.
Warm welcomes,
Cries of delight.
When we're submerged,
We're hidden from light.
Knowing glances,
Shared secrets.
As the dwellers,
Come to meet us.
Carve a new path,
the voice whispers.
Wander without a destination for eternity.
Change your name, looks, personality, likes and dislikes.
Become someone new and forget.
the voice gets stronger with each passing day;
it builds up and up,
fills my heart and bones like the
beat of a drum rattling the floor.
it sings to my soul with honeyed words
like the moonlight creeping through the window
Never come back to the same place twice,
the voice whispers.
Never be that girl again.
somehow, the things that once drowned out the voices
screaming in my head
no longer work.
I said "Okay."
Thought I wanted attentions,
Your time,
Your cuddles,
Your hugs,
Your calls,
Your voices,
Your texts,
Your words,
Your I love you.
I'm okay.
Loud is the room when your trying to work
Loud are your thoughts whenever it hurts
Loud are the voices that are calling you names
Loud is the silents with a hole through your brain
"stay strong"
Well i promise im trying.
I promise they every day i wake up hoping that it's better than the last.
I wake up and say today we will pull ourself together.
Just to fall apart when i hear your voice.
so many things left unsaid.
so many words left unspoken.
your voice plays on repeat in my head,
but somehow i fear i'm forgetting you.
forgetting your voice,
your smile,
your presence.
until someone says "remember when"
and there i am.
9 years old dancing with you in the kitchen.
with no clue what my life would become,
and how disappointed you would be.
the only thing i knew was you chose to be there with me.
so many words were said,
but never the right ones.
never the ones that needed to be said.
what are you living for?
a question that i have heard too many times to count
how do i answer a question that has no answer
it's what i would have said if you had asked me just 4 months ago.
but just when i was ready to jump
ready to do something i couldn't undo,
i heard the most beautiful noise i had ever heard
her voice
as soon as her voice echoed in my ear
suddenly everything was clear.
it's all uphill from here.
how many days did I wast,
searching for a sweet escape. necessities of life bigger than the life itself,
when I asked for help,
they tell me to have faith.
I walked off with a disagreement,
I'm hearing voices,
but the voices are fake.
it took long
but now I understand
only thing that is yours,
is the yours you make.