you carried me to the burial
of my still corpse
which I think one
of the best I ever saw
who loves as well
as the eyes
my breath rattled
the pigeons went quiet
doors come to be great friends
with the dead
I eat my afterself
and depart into story
the coroner will be called
to examine my joy
a dull lecturer
am I a better captain
having lost the ship
having ended in a sad home
evening like a great wound
I am not able to miss
At the bottom of the pasture,
a house trailer with one of its
long walls neatly removed
like the lid on a Japanese bento,
so anyone can take in its contents
with a single glance, flashing by
on the highway, sunroof down,
radio blaring, & look —
there’s a wee kitchen,
a living room with sagging sofa-bed,
two bedrooms & a walk-in closet
gaping empty: neither clothes
nor the bodies that slipped in
& out of them, white as rice,
growing round on next to nothing
& never feeling full.
my hands huddle
with a dram of brandy
at the bar as if
at my own table
hearing me cry
they touch one another
not to pray but to part
having had no quiet
if I could put back
in the box all
my dark rain
and play a poet
of insipid ruins
would I live
only on the road
and stop being hurt
let our work all go to sea
green as a drunk
on an apprenticeship
before we tell of the many defects
the small charities
the joy still dying
one evening
dangerous in memory
I died
my hands
understand me
or some melancholy any thing
in the drink called ocean
all the spoils of our joy make
a great turn
into one burial
any doubt may spoil
directions to the sun
looked upon as a sort
of government
for neither the fig
nor for my poor face
miserably swelled
in days of sickness
a great crowd comes
to the wrong world
from pain
comes alone
like some hoped-for good luck
and I am silent as the moonlight
entering my bed
how to mourn people
who have never been happy
unhappiness falling like sleep
over this wild wonder of a body
that nobody prizes
true as water may happen
to be held in flux