I understand how much of a gentleman
You are being.
I admire that.
You're not like other guys,
Complimenting me on my body,
And saying things like "hot".
I don't want to be flattered by
Such vulgar comments.
But how can someone love me?
I am a nobody.
I am the lonely girl.
I made a promise.
A promise not to hurt,
To keep a smile on my face.
I never smiled even before I met you.
What makes you think I would change,
Just for you.
I made a promise,
To not hurt myself,
But what promise goes unbroken?
The lonely girl,
Who lives for video games and anime,
Always sits alone.
The popular boy,
Lives for sports and girls.
Why is the boy,
Even trying to talk to the girl?
Calling her at around midnight,
Texting her silly things,
Like "I LOVE SALAD!"
Is he mocking her?
Making fun at her loneliness?
Or is he trying to,
Somehow brake her social barrier?
The girl sits alone,
Crying out in pain.
But no one can hear her,
While she's surrounded by her demons.
Why won't someone
Break through the sound barrier?
She's sitting in agony,
But no one will save her.
After all,
How can you save someone,
From their inner demons?
I can feel those fingers,
Long and bony.
This is just my imagination.
I'm still lonely.
I can feel the madness
Of being alone.
My voice inside
Is losing every tone.
She said she was okay.
And you believe her?
Let me tell you.
What's wrong with her.
She's tired.
This exactly what she is.
She's tired of getting hurt.
Tired of being let down.
She's tired of all lies.
She's tired of her flaws and insecurities.
She's tired.
And she is me.
I want to take off my mask,
Show my face,
Tell you,
I am here,
The one that you are talking now,
Is here.
But,
I can't,
I'm afraid,
I'm gonna lose you with this lie,
You gonna be disappointed,
The person who leave you,
Is the person who chat with you,
Every single day,
To make you speak,
That feelings,
I feel my own sadness,
I cry alone,
I wipe my own tears,
I make myself happy,
I go through everything all by myself,
Don't you dare to help me,
If you can't.
Do not come to me,
You will get hurt,
My hand are shaking,
Seeing you like this,
With no tears in me,
No hug for the morning,
Everything gone.
Gone from our sight,
I am gone in your heart,
Let them take me,
Do not take my hand,
Even i said i want it,
Aware,
Do not ever take my hand,
Just hate me,
Like the amount you love me,
Before lunch, I have some snacks
Going about my day.
During lunch, I eat a sandwich
Wondering about how to play.
After lunch, I come to realize everyday is the same
No one is there for me.
Once I'm done with everything,
Then I will finally be set free.
They used to call me.
So happy and never sad.
Everyone's laughs filled the air.
Until they became toxic like the tears.
Sun rises in the morning,
Flowers in full bloom,
I wonder how it is for a person like you...
My best friend has come back to me yet again.
It is a sadness I get addicted to.
A thing such as a hobby can never compare.
It speaks to me out loud like a crow.
Out in the void of nothing, its always there.
It always finds you.
Especially when your lost.
My best friend is back again.
I look up and down and all I see is red.
It fades away, such as the screams.
Good thing your always with me.