its pretty hard to comprehend
why
everything has happened the way
it has.
things could've gone better,
we could both be a little happier,
and maybe in a different time or world
we would be together.
but until then,
we wait.
11;11
eyelashes
shooting stars
dandelions
pointless petals
on pretty flowers;
waiting and
waiting
countless hours.
All for one
wish,
that wont come true.
You're running away from me
while i waste my wishes,
love, and
time,
"If it's meant to be,
It will be"
So I sit
And wait
Hoping you'll come back.
But I see you
Every week,
With a different girl.
And yes, it makes me sad.
And yes, sometimes
I do cry.
But I keep thinking
It's meant to be.
So I sit
And wait
For you to come back to me
I need to forget about you.
The way you forgot about me.
I need to drop you
And never look back.
I will be fine,
As i was a page in your book,
You were a chapter in mine.
You were the one
That broke me
And I'm still waiting
For someone
To put me back together
I wonder
What hurts more?
The scars on my wrists,
Or what you did to my heart.
You caused both,
No surprise.
But I thought you'd be
Different this time.
You
Brought me light.
You are my moon
On the darkest night.
You said forever
And I thought for life.
You only stayed
For a couple nights.
And those nights were glory
While my days were pain.
I danced through heaven
As you screamed my name.
But when you left
The darkness came
And I realised
You're the one who kept me sane.
When we met
You told me your dreams
And I always thought
I would be apart of them.
I was your first kiss
Your first valentine
And you were and will always be
My first love.
Years have passed since
Our lovely time.
As we grew up
You weren't mine.
And with another girl
The rest of your dreams came true
But mine never did
Because they all involved you
When I met you in 5th grade
It pained me
To see you with other girls.
So I made a move
To get you
To be mine and only mine.
As the years went on
You slowly forgot
All the things
I would not.
I still miss your eyes
And your smile
And I crave the way you looked at me
Every once in a while.
And now I'm older
But It still pains me
She smokes
He cuts
Different things
But for the same reasons.
She's harmed
On the inside
He's harmed
On the out.
Her skin hides
The effects
Long sleeves
Hide his.
With the disguises
She can't see his pain
And he can't see hers.
Their eyes tell
But once again my mind
Is flooded with all the thoughts
Of what I'm not
Perfect
Skinny
Pretty
Happy
And with each thought
There is another cut
With a wish
Of finally being loved
By someone
Anyone
Me.
On my arms,
In the summertime.
Its hot outside,
But I don't mind.
It covers everything I hide.
I say its for style,
To seem like I don't care,
But that's all a lie,
I notice everything that's there.
Why do I wear sweaters
In the summertime?
To cover my arms,
That are covered with scars.
And While you're too focused on my pretty sweaters,
I'm silently hoping
Everything will get better.