i cried,
i screamed,
i wondered why.
was i good enough?
was my temper bad?
or was it because i was out of reach?
you came,
you apologized,
you were forgiven.
they whispered
leave her
they said
she's no good
they yelled
you don't need her
you listened.
your friends,
your family,
they new about me.
but did you tell them the good side of me?
i cried for you
when no one else
did
he told me
go with him if you really love him
he told me
he wouldn't leave if he loved you
he told me
go before it's too late
little did he know,
you already left.
you never wanted me,
you only liked the way i made you feel.
you were hopelessly in love with a memory.
i whispered.
i can't
you replied.
i haven't heard your voice,
i haven't seen you smile,
i don't wake up to you when i have nightmares.
how have you been?
do you miss me?
i haven't heard your laugh,
i haven't seen your emerald green eyes,
i don't know you anymore.
if i went back i'd be desperate for attention.
i found someone that could give me that.
it wasn't anything like what you gave me.
your smile was warmer.
your eyes were greener.
your hair was softer.
but you weren't mine anymore,
you also found another.
you lived your life without me.
it didn't seem to get better.
i'm sorry.
i wanted you back,
but i feared it'd be the same.
you were my everything,
all i ever asked for.
you were getting older,
heading off to a place full of parties, girls, and drugs.
i was scared, i was young, i was lost.
i was a distraction,
i was a disappointment.
i removed myself from your life.
i hoped to give you the life every boy wishes to have.
one with prettier girls than i.
i forgot the worst part of our love story,
it wasn't good enough to be remembered.
crying,
fighting,
yelling.
is that how you remembered it?