My day was wonderful!
I got an A on all three tests!
Are you happy?
My day was great!
I have a solo in choir!
Are you happy?
My day was good!
I exceeded the PSAT!
Are you happy?
My day was fine.
I cleaned the house.
Are you happy?
My day was okay.
It's been a long day of assignments.
Are you happy?
My day was normal.
I think I should get a rubber band on my wrist too
To stop me from thinking of you
Cause after all this time I'm still writing poems about you
Still saying I'm in love with you
I still have your number on my phone by the way
I tried calling the other day
THE NUMBER YOU HAVE DIALED DOES NOT EXIST
Which had me thinking for a little bit
Maybe the love I seek does not exist
And I guess maybe that's alright
Maybe it's about time I gave up the fight
I'm way too battered and bruised
I missed the opportunity to hold you close
Now I'm stuck here missing you
And I guess all of this seems like it's coming out the blue
And maybe that's true
The number you have dialed does not exist
I sit calmly as my soul continues to violently scream for you
I've tried running to you but pride holds me hostage
My fears and insecurities keep in a bondage
Right next to all the words I should've said
Never have I know a love like this
Correction
Never will I know a love like this
A love that waited patiently for me to grow up
A love that lifted me up and showed me the ropes
Because whenever I had your hand to hold
I was shinning baby girl I was gold
I used to think the sunset was beautiful
Back when I was with you still
But now every time I set my eyes on it
I can feel the pain coming over me
I have this dream that one day I'll bump into you in the mall
You'd be wearing that black dress I like and the matching heels
And you'll look so beautiful I'll immediately get into my feels
But like I've been doing for what feels like an eternity now
I'll hold back my tears because you are walking with him
Laughing harder than you ever did with me
He probably loves you better than I ever could
Brings you chocolate everyday
Kisses you on the neck way better than me
I'm sure he listens to you
I'm sure he's twice the man I ever could be
Maybe you think of me
Or maybe for a second you see me too
And you instantly turn blue
Now would be a good chance to ask me why
Why I never seemed to try
I see him holding the piece of my heart I've been missing
He's taken a part of myself I can't get back
I still need you and darling you know that
So I'll hold back my tears again
And pretend that it's different
I'll ignore all the bitterness
Of the sweet nothings you used to whisper in my ear
Those constellations I used to gaze upon Are now sadly gone
They sparkle for someone else now
You promised me you'd stay
But now you are miles away
You even dress differently
And I think that's the part that's killing me
If you could change for him so easily and move on so fast
I wonder if you were fake with me
Was I just your release
My days are grim
My nights are blue,
My memory tainted green,
My vision has lost its hue
But a bite into this orange
The juice sipping through,
The taste I can't manage
A mirage is what is true.
Too much, turns bitter
Just like my mood
When I see a cover of glitter
My feelings become nude
But in all that comes,
I am the only witness.
Hide that pain,
Wash away that stain
Throw it all in a pail
Don't let them see you frail.
All this hurt
Going on in my heart
Rooted in me like a hut
On the ground strongly made of dirt.
They don't know me
They don't care about me
They don't see what's in me
They don't appreciate me.
Why such a life?
Why strike me a knife?
Why make me a wife?
A betrothed wife to suffering.
The sun shines bright but all I see is darkness.
Darkness in the light,
darkness in the clouds,
darkness in the earth beneath my feet,
darkness in the air i supposedly breathe.
Is it me?
Or is it my fate..
or is that my destiny...
or are they all one and the same?
The road is clear of traffic,
I am free to tread on it
but before i can take a step,
I look down to my feet
and i see darkness.
Darkness in the road i am to trek on.
The clothes i parade in are dark,
As he bit into my heart he looked into my eyes,
He had a nasty grin,
Like he was missing something inside...
He wiped his mouth and closed his eyes
"Ah that was refreshing"
He said while I just laid there and cried...
There once was a girl,
She cried all the time,
She cried all night,
Falling asleep with tears in her eyes,
She'd cry all morning once she got up,
She cried so much her tear ducts dried up...
Although they were dry
somehow she still seemed to cry
Because...
She was nothing but broken inside.
There was a boy I fell madly in love with...
He told me he would fix me,
But instead all he did was break me..
He broke my already shattered pieces,
Smaller
And smaller
And smaller...
Till they were almost unfixable...
I feel so desperate and lost.
It's like this place is just a cardboard box.
I feel weak and ill.
Please just give me some sort of pill.
I crave a release from this world
This body
This mind.
I am desperate.