They say the present is a gift. But if that's really true then why would i want to send it back?
I watch myself in an outer body experience,
I watch,
I just stand there and watch,
I watch myself try so hard to get your attention,
But no matter how hard I try,
I can't get even just a glimpse from you.
I then begin searching for a reason to live,
I always thought it was you,
I always wanted it to be you,
But now I understand,
Angels and demons aren't meant to be
I'm just unsure of which we are.
The scent you left on me after that night made it hard for my mind to let go.
The marks you left on me after that night made it hard for my body to let go.
All the trauma and pain after all those nights made it hard for my heart to let go.
They say it's Stockholm Syndrome,
You captured me against my will,
Yet for some reason I still don't want to leave.
I thought leaving you would be a blessing,
But I think it hurt more then I'd ever realise,
But sometimes I think It's just me obsessing.
Obsessing over you. How you made me feel.
Maybe it's the way you excite me even though it hurts.
Is that's what made me, me?
Now I'm so use to the hurt it's like I'm scared to feel anything else other then hurt.
Is this wrong? Am I wrong?
He comes to me at night,
His hands are as cold as ice,
I close my eyes as he takes another Bite.
I disappear into my mind,
I can't bare to realise I'm there
And then once again I bend.
I bend to his every will.
His every motion.
Then all it does is give you some sick thrill.
Sometimes, it's not how long you love someone for
it's how hard you've loved them that causes the pain.
An even though I knew I shouldn't have fallen for you I did it anyway.
So now that heartbreak is my fault
That pain is my fault.
Tears... staining my cheeks.
I've seen this before..
Pain... aching in my soul.
I've felt this before.
Last night I could have sworn you were the right guy...
Now I see that I may not be quite sure...
Just like once before.
I feel invisible. Like I'm disappearing. Slowly.
I'm falling... further and further from being someone you care about...
less and less like someone you'll hear about...
An this type of hurt really makes you question your existence...
Sometimes I forget it's there,
Then again maybe it's not?
Or is it just that I wish it's not.
My heartbeat I forget it hurts..
But then again maybe it doesn't
Or maybe it's just I wish it didn't...
I am empty,
It's hard to understand how I became this way,
Was it you? Has it always been you?
Leading me into this dark pit of emptiness
Just so you can say you broke me so bad that I don't know what it feels like to love anyone but you? Or is it to warn off others? To make sure no one else can have me the way you did.
Or do I just blame you? Because I don't want to admit that all this time the problem was really ME
I sit there with an expression,
The expression that is not only plastered onto my face but the one that is also plastered onto my emotions.
B
A
N
K
All I feel is nothing.
I thought I was getting better,
Well actually I guess in a way I am...
I look into the pitch of the night
I don't know why it gives me such a fright...
Is it cause that's where you first ran your fingers along my skin.
Still that thought of us makes me feel so thin
It makes me feel as if I'm nothing but just some wind. You said you love me but I still don't see it. Please tell me if you know where it is, I just want to feel it.