they thought they wrere saving me from myself
however
the only thing they did was take away the only restraint I had
but now
there is nothing holding me back
On the first day
She walked down the street
Places to go
People to meet
Breakfast with mom
Tea with the queen
Appointment with stylist
Man with the weed
Prepping at eight
Concert at ten
Meet and greet after
When will it end
Perfect image
Perfect shape
All these commands
She had to cooperate
It's 3:16AM and I can't sleep
The whiz of the fan and the softness of my pillow
Should be able to lull me
But the monsters under my bed
And the monsters above it
Stop me from drifting off into a peaceful dream
Where anything is possible
And my wildest fantasies can come to life
Darkness is my friend
As I watch the figures dancing on the ceiling
Waiting for my eyes to shut.
Silently,
I lay watching the sunlight pour into my room
I guess no sleep again.
You've been talking in your sleep
It is not my name you call
And I wonder, is it only a dream?
Or do you have a secret lover?
I can tell it's a very sensual dream
But is it only your imagination?
Or are you reliving some past liaison?
I've never had any reason to mistrust you
Do I have one now?
And how can I know?
i'm slightly broken, crushed, more void then human. liquid fills the cracks, smoke blurres the lines, music shake the pieces.
bathroom tiles hazy, light flickering to the beat of my heart, and i swear i see him. behind me with the red eyes and a killing pin between his lips. cracked hands running through my hair, smiling at me like every part of his shattered soul were lying in my hands.
bathroom tiles still hazy, light still flickering, heart still beating.
he has my soul, too
How can you be the highlight of my dreams and the monster under my bed.
I went into the dark woods
Escaped from all the hunters
The sharp fire
The rage shouts
The mean faces
And I found it was safe here
No one would want me to die
But it was cold at day
And wintry so at night
But i went with it anyway
I thought I was okay
I hoped I was okay
The sun is shining bright
Oh, it is so shiny
The sea flows a lot
I think it's gonna drown me
What will they call me?
Ma'am?
Sir?
The anxiety creeps behind me ready too tackle at any give moment.
Will I even be able to not feel the fear?
Or will it stay?
For I'll never know.
what is this beautiful feeling that everyone always talks about?
she asks herself in the dark.
no one answers of course.
why would they?
she sits on the bed and thinks about it more as worry is taking over her.
will she ever know?
will she ever feel it?
her classmates, friends, as they call themselfes, always talk about it.
how they found the one.
how the girl in the class corner can't stop smiling because of him.
how she found him.
she hears her classmates talking about their feelings once again.
about what they feel about each and every one of the people they know.
but she,
she's scared
scared to get hurt
And i see the world
From tearing eyes
That winds sway
And breezes burn
As hearts attached
Losing patience
But fathom not
The sanity that remains
Less than an atoms weight
My head is pounding with thoughts
I am regressing inside my mind
I don't know what I'll find
I'm scared to get trapped there
The real world phasing before my eyes
And my reality gets shifted
I don't know why this started
Was there something that triggered it?
The blanket has settled over me
I went to shake it off
But I also want to snuggle down deeper
And relish in the darkness
I've been there before
I made it out alive
Somewhat