If I could feel the way it feels
To make them all say wow
If I could just change, it would change
The screaming in my head won't stop
Sometimes I just hit pause
If the days could only stop
Then maybe I'm not alone
To feel the feel, you must achieve
Somethings are just not real
I lay in my bed thinking about
My mind is ticking
It's overwhelming
Why can't I reach the top?
Screams are faint
Heard behind
The moonlight dying into day
Bleeding to light
It's time to get up
Write a book
Smile down
Smile hard
For them all
Scribble down everything you hear
Everything they say
Very whispers of your own thoughts
Turn the pages
Ink written lies
Pass by
Blend into the paper
it hurts, it pains me every day
I make bad decisions, to keep it from coming for me
it's like when you fill up a water bottle and you lose focus
then I explode
it comes out, when I don't see it coming
stress
it's something that I cannot control
even when life's may finally be good
she makes it great
and that's hard to take
but that's just how we roll
sometimes we chat all night long
even when I plead guilty
she never goes away
I can fly across the earth
and she will still find me
The biggest fears have no denouement
Is a fear in itself
I tell people
'Roller coasters scare me'
But they end
Some leave us trembling
Our legs to give out from under us
The tears starting and stopping
Until what
Until when
There is no denouement for the worst ones
And that is earth shattering
The car hummed to life
Time for a trip on the road
Senses were knifed
Dulled and smaller
The skies were dark
Empty of stars
But this place held a spark
So we head to these places,
Without destinations
We hid in close spaces
In time we heard chanting
Somehow mellifluous
Of names familiarly chanted
In time
There were not enough monsters
As they had been kind
Fog clots the air
You are not here and you are not real
Full of anxiety, full of despair
You are made of paper
So you curse and swear
That you are dreaming
She walked through the park
Because " it would help"
It did ,until...
She saw a monster running towards her. She stopped
Running to the opposite direction
she fell
a big hand neared her
"Don't! Don't! Don't!"
She screamed,
But still felt so speechless.
Stories,scenarios and scripts running through her mind
begging her to run ,to hide, to disappear.
They told her they knew what was about to happen.
A soft voice said to look up
She didn't
She knew it was the voice of danger
It's 3:53 and I don't know why I can't do anything. My mind is still , and I am secretly angry.
Felt around darkness on
the rusty ferry towards Kirkwall.
Night was chasing me
and soon everything turned
to the darkest shade.
The swollen sea was
a ferocious monster,
ready to swallow every sign
of happiness and cover it
under a white foam coat.
From the gate lightly torched,
I saw an unknown Isle,
silent and dark but awake
by the lonely lighthouse.
I was sat by the bench,
feeling sick at the point
How's possible?
You, made of black velvet,
so bright, so shiny,
eat the worst blood,
lying on the pebbles.
You watch your pride
on that dirty water.
Your ego is talking to you
about the next prey
to follow.
A black stain in the sky,
ravens in twilight,
dancing in his eyes.
I pictured in my mind
the flying nightmare
biting the worst.
Nocturnal thought are harmful,
the ones where you grab your head,
messing the hair up
You can't stop your tears from falling,
from the cheek to the blanket.
A miracle is making all the way around
but sadly it's not a fairytale.
All these loud thoughts
are banging on the wall
who is going to stop them?
Suddenly everything stops.
The eyes are barely open,
teardrops wiped out the noises.
Three eyeballs.
Three dry walls.
Three needles in my brain...
Three creatures.
Three monsters.
Walking through the lane.
But only one left to watch,
In the deepest darkness of them all.
An overseen overseer,
Lost his mind, and his body,
Now he's watching from beyond.