was this guy
that left something in you
he was one of those guys that makes you pain
each place you two were together
will never be the same
in your eyes
again
he cared for you
and you cared for him
a bond that you shared
together
that's special
he was the type of guy that never
forced
or made
you do anything
I found you in my bed last night,
just three 8mm frames.
You were in that long white hippy dress, your hair glowing in late sunlight,
(one evening playing with the dogs).
I didn’t tell my wife.
Unlike those years with you, she hasn’t been through a film making love affair
finding cut frames, peeled off splicing tape,
curved ends of white leader that stick to your skin. Your body.
Everywhere. Until now.
So near.
So far.
So close to touch.
So close to smell.
So close to her.
So close burn.
Yet she can't see.
Can't feel.
Can't burn.
Alone.
Talking with her shadow.
Waving her golden hair around.
The essence of roses following her.
Capturing him.
Torturing him.
Burning him.
Pushing him closer.
Teasing.
Did you ever think does anyone get butterflies over me?Does anybody look at me with such desire?Does anybody long for my presence.
Because I do.
Is loyal called that?
What I'm to you,
And what I feel for you,
Is that love called true?
What's the name of this feeling?
When everything reminds me of you,
And now I feel fearless ,
And now I feel free,
Because wherever I go,
I feel shadows of your memories ,
Walking with me.
In the dark
Like lamps upon
That lightless starlight
And yet somehow we found each other
To light that star tonight
You are like Chinese characters to me
No matter how many characters there are,
I never forget a single one
I threw my heart away
From loving someone
so far and it landed into you
I was lost once
But then bees replaced my heart
With honeycomb
And now,
Not only I found myself
But also I found you
the moon is responsible
for courting the tides
but hear comes the sun
~jealousy
I hate myself, my body
The sky above me and the hell beneath me
I long to be trapped in my own nightmare
Where I get to go nowhere
Only until you came
You turned salt into sugar
You turned wounds into stars