Machines — Poem analysis

my memories hold machines the wall lighting up as a car cruised by our house and i was happy high up a buzzing plane in the hot empty blueness motors sputtering on lakes the long car journeys to the city school with car rugs the big orange busses leaning around corners or to the rolling hills those old ironing machines for sheets -

are machines romantic after all? I've wanted them to disappear dissolve to feel the good rough smells of earth unpaved for cars murderers of silence of green vibrant depths of healing life

but they are intertwined even in leaves and rivers in my longings merged and mellowed in what seemed almighty life fragile to steel which softens in nostalgia

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Most poems that fret about machines and nature choose a side early. Anne Scott Musil's "Machines" opens in affection instead. Its speaker begins by admitting that "my memories hold machines," and the first stanza is a loose album of them: headlights sweeping across a wall, a plane in the sky, outboard motors on lakes, a school run wrapped in car rugs, orange buses, even old ironing machines for sheets. The second stanza turns on this tenderness and wishes every engine away. The third refuses to let either feeling win. The central idea is that the speaker cannot cleanly separate what she loves from what she blames, because nostalgia has bound the two together.

The first stanza works through small, exact sensory moments. "The wall lighting up as a car / cruised by our house" is what a child sees from bed at night, and the speaker follows it with the plainest line in the poem: "and i was happy." There is no explanation, only the fact. The plane is "high up a buzzing plane in the / hot empty blueness," where sound and heat come through before any sense of danger. Even the boy-sized scale of the "big orange busses leaning / around corners" suggests a viewpoint close to the ground. Judging by the school and the car rugs, these are childhood memories, though the poem never says so. The stanza ends on "those old ironing machines / for sheets -", a domestic, unglamorous item that widens "machines" beyond engines. The dash leaves the thought hanging, as if the list could go on.

The form suits this drifting recall. There is no rhyme and no regular beat, and the first stanza has almost no punctuation. The line breaks fall on weak words ("the," "to," "in the"), so sentences tumble over the ends of lines. "Or to / the rolling hills" slides from buses to landscape without warning, the way one memory triggers another. The speaker's "i" is lowercase here, and only in the second stanza does it become the capital "I've." That may be coincidence, but it is tempting to read the lowercase as the remembered, unguarded self and the capital as the self who judges.

That judging self arrives with a question, "are machines romantic / after all?", and the language hardens. "Disappear dissolve" has no comma between the verbs, so the wish seems to melt away as it is spoken. The desired world is physical and unpolished: "the good rough smells of earth / unpaved for cars." Here "unpaved" works almost like a verb, as though the road could be undone. Then comes the poem's harshest phrase, cars as "murderers of silence." The stanza ends in a chain of "of" phrases ("of silence of / green vibrant depths / of healing life") that piles up what has been lost. The irony is that the first stanza was full of noise: "buzzing," "sputtering." The speaker's happiness lived inside the sound she now says destroys silence.

The final stanza begins with "but," and the poem changes its mind. Machines turn out to be "intertwined even / in leaves and rivers," so they have seeped into the speaker's picture of nature itself. Two soft words, "merged and mellowed," carry the alliteration of an old grievance slowly gentling. The syntax of the next lines is deliberately knotted: "in what seemed / almighty life fragile / to steel which softens / in nostalgia." One reading is that steel once seemed almighty and life fragile beside it. Another hears the reverse, that life was the almighty thing and steel merely hard. The missing punctuation lets both stand. What is clear is the final image of steel softening, the hardest material in the poem turned pliable by memory. The poem ends without a full stop, leaving the question open.

The poem matters because it is honest about a contradiction many people feel. It is easy to condemn machines in the abstract and just as easy to forget that we remember our lives through them: a car's light on a wall, a bus around a bend. By letting the speaker wish for silence and still treasure the noise, the poem shows that an environmental conscience and a sentimental one can live in the same person. It does not settle the argument. It shows how complicated the feeling is, and that is more convincing than a verdict.

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