Betrayal — Summary

It tastes like copper And I bite my lip Just to check for my blood type

Of course.

It looks like the darkest cavern And I close my eyes Just to compare shades of black

Of course.

It sounds like chaos And I suffer in silence Just to notice how quieter it would be

Of course

It feels like all three And I scream and I scream and I scream for help Just to hear the sound of my own voice

Of course.

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Betrayal is never defined here. Instead, the speaker describes how it hits the senses: it tastes like copper, looks like a dark cavern, sounds like chaos. Each time, the speaker reacts with a strange, almost clinical act. They bite their lip to check their blood type, close their eyes to compare shades of black, stay silent to notice how quiet things could be. The flat little refrain "Of course" sounds like a shrug, as if the speaker is numb, or trying to be.

That detachment feels like a way of coping. Turning pain into small experiments keeps the speaker at arm's length from it. But the last stanza breaks the pattern. All three sensations arrive at once, and the repeated "scream and I scream and I scream" shows control slipping. Even then, the speaker only wants to hear their own voice, which suggests loneliness and a need to prove they still exist. The mood is bleak, dazed, and quietly desperate.

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