Automaton — Summary

I have clockwork in my bones. Hear it tick, hear it tock; Clamoring abusive tones. Hear the click of the lock.

I feel the gears turn in my chest; Burning out, scraping hard. But never-ever do they rest; Hear them shout, ever-marred.

Look behind my crystal eyes; See it go, watch with pride For there within the clockwork lies To and fro, side-to-side.

And see my heart is open wide; How it was like a wired trap. Once within, you're stuck inside As it does often tend to snap.

I am little more than a wind-up doll, Moving along, as I must do. Yet I wonder when now the key will stall, And I will surely stop.

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The speaker describes themselves as a machine: clockwork in the bones, gears turning in the chest, a heart that works like a trap. The ticking and clicking run through the whole poem, so the body feels less like a living thing and more like a mechanism that cannot switch itself off. The gears scrape, burn out, and never rest, which suggests exhaustion and a life stuck on repeat.

The speaker seems trapped and tired, and also a little detached. Calling themselves "little more than a wind-up doll" suggests they feel controlled, going through motions they didn't choose. The open heart is an odd, unsettling image: it invites someone in, but once inside, you're stuck, and it may snap shut. That hints at fear of closeness, or of hurting others.

The mood is mechanical, uneasy, and quietly bleak. The final lines turn to something like resigned curiosity, as the speaker wonders when the key will stall and everything will simply stop.

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