Getting Heavier — Summary

Prematurely grave – sentences delivered with a note of finality, syllogisms grasped & held in the mind the way excess skin from a facelift vanishes into a crack beside the ears – I stretch myself over the same mattress of bone, morning & evening. I go on as if nothing happened, as if I were free on my own recognizance & this growing heaviness simply means I need more sleep. I’ve become adept at ignoring the jagged piece of sky pressing down on the back of my neck. Since I stopped following the news, my dreams supply all the missing details of earthquake, torture, & mass starvation. Ask me anything. Sometimes I get up in the middle of the night & pretend it’s morning: shower, drink coffee & look for poems in the ready-made phrases I think of as inspired, because breath belongs to everyone & no one & I am trying not to give undue weight to the new reports that claim it is oxygen, stripping the electrons from other molecules, that slowly reduces this body to a swamp of light.

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The speaker describes a body and mind slowly sinking under a weight he can't quite name. It starts with a kind of early gravity: stern, final-sounding sentences and tidy arguments that settle in the mind like loose skin disappearing after a facelift. Each morning and evening he lies down on the same "mattress of bone" and carries on as if nothing is wrong, as if tiredness were the only problem. But the image of a "jagged piece of sky" pressing on his neck suggests something heavier, perhaps the world's troubles. Though he has stopped following the news, his dreams bring back earthquakes, torture, and starvation anyway.

The mood is weary, anxious, and darkly wry. Sleepless nights become pretend mornings spent hunting for poems. The ending turns strange: even breathing, something shared by everyone, may be wearing him down, leaving a "swamp of light." He tries not to take that too seriously, which only makes it linger.

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