In My Darkest of Times — Summary

I feel the stress build As I keep pushing on But as my heart begins to clench I sometimes feel like there is no chance of return As I lose myself in the dark I feel my soul leaves me for the light I keep pushing forward into the endless abyss With no hope of return. I lose what makes me me I become someone I am not All I can do is wait there in the dark alone cold but then a light shows a being of kind and loving light Not a god or angel But a living being Someone close to my heart as they hold out their hand i feel my soul and heart return and what I lost comes back and the light that saved me now guides me everyday Now the questions shall rise what caused such pain It would be hard to understand they say let us try But when I do I am told im dramatic What is it you ask? Fear and sadness Anger and Pain All of which are good names But the real terms we must use Is just old news Anxiety and depression It causes my regression From my true self And the one who brought me back Who saved me from fate Is one whom loves me. With all their heart. The cycle repeats But it does not bother me For I know that light will shine in my darkest of times.

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Gavyn D. Henson's poem describes what it feels like to be swallowed by anxiety and depression, and to be pulled back out by someone who cares. The speaker begins in stress and numbness, feeling their heart clench and their sense of self slip away. They say they become "someone I am not," waiting alone and cold in the dark. Then a light appears, a person rather than a god or angel, who offers a hand and brings the speaker's soul and heart back.

The second half turns to the aftermath. When the speaker tries to explain their pain, they are told they are dramatic, so they name it plainly: anxiety and depression. The poem admits the cycle will repeat, but the tone is steady rather than despairing. Because the speaker knows help will come, the dark loses some of its power.

The mood moves from heavy and isolating to tender and quietly hopeful. The simple, unpolished language makes it feel like a direct, honest confession.

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