My Distant Other — Summary

The linoleum tiles gleam today With somebody's many tears. I know not who is crying, Yet I know it is not me. Rush hour comes and the tears are covered With dirt and other debris By those who neither know nor care Whose tears they trample. The droplets of a soul Blend with debris Tracked by so many running feet. Now, the feet are gone. No more come to replace them. It is night and there is silence For an almost perfect moment. Then, the figure stumbles into the building. Its broken voice speaks no words, Yet the mournful sounds indicate That it is looking for someone. Its actions indicate That it is looking for me, For it is my distant other, Left behind and dulled to nearly nothing During many years of loneliness, Nearly forgotten as times changed. Yet I remember its sweetness And it makes me proud. I wish I could have seen it grow Or raised it as my own. In a life I never had, That would have been its fate. Yet now, I must see it Distraught and otherwise unwell, As if it had been broken In a million little pieces. And now, I must remember That I must stay seperated From my distant other For a couple more years at least. More and more, I want to be With my distant other.

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The poem begins with a small, ordinary image: tears left on a tiled floor, soon trampled by people rushing past who don't know or care whose they are. The speaker insists the tears aren't theirs, but that denial feels uncertain, and the poem soon turns toward something more personal. When night falls and the building goes quiet, a broken figure stumbles in, searching for the speaker. It turns out to be the speaker's "distant other," a part of themselves, or perhaps a separate self, left behind through years of loneliness.

The speaker feels a mix of pride, longing and regret. They remember the figure's sweetness and wish they had watched it grow, yet now they must see it hurt and fragile. The poem suggests they have to stay apart for "a couple more years at least," though the reason isn't explained. The mood is sad and hushed, moving from the noise of rush hour to a lonely quiet, and ending on a quiet, persistent wish to be reunited.

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