my story — Summary

You say you can read me like a book But the once happy story Is distorted by thick black ink It doesn't read the same way anymore The more I read the thicker the ink gets It seeps into my fingertips and up my arms My Head gets so light it's in the clouds But the ink fills my mouth I'm drowning! The ink is flammable, It burns in my chest yet... Its colour becomes a comfort to me immersing myself in it brings no peace... It isolates me, makes me feel numb, alone, useless This feeling takes over Re-writing my story I can't stop it I can only slow it down There is no cause for this affect But I'm drowning At least it feels like I could be There is no way to describe it completely The ink is a mixture of negative thoughts feeling and doubts My past has been tainted with this ink My future will be written by it As it stands that story will be bleak

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Katie Foster's "my story" uses a single image, black ink spreading through a book, to describe what depression or overwhelming despair can feel like. It begins with someone claiming they can "read" the speaker like a book, but the speaker knows the story has already changed. What was once happy has been darkened and distorted, and the more she reads, the worse it gets.

The ink soon moves from the page into her body. It seeps up her arms, fills her mouth, and makes her feel like she is drowning, then burns in her chest. Oddly, its colour also comforts her, yet it brings no peace, only numbness, loneliness and a sense of being useless. The mood is heavy and helpless. She says she can only slow the feeling down, not stop it, and she can't explain where it comes from. By the end, the ink has tainted her past and will write her future, which she expects to be bleak.

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