DIET — Summary

black scarfs covering the mirrors that stare me down as i pose in fear i can't see anything, but the monster is leaving its tears so i pick them up and put them back again, when i walk out almost slipping when I tiptoe my way out and into my own doubt

i wrap myself up in my blanket of comfort i wrap myself up in my blanket of suffer

what about when i get cold feet? what about when i want to fall asleep? what about when i'm so dizzy that my weight is weighing me down untill i drown and i break some bones i hear them crack, i just can't stand on my feet

do i eat today?

or does it only add to the weight for the rest of my bones to break?

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"Diet" reads like a snapshot of someone caught in a painful struggle with food and body image. The speaker covers the mirrors with black scarves because they feel stared down by their own reflection. The "monster" that leaves tears behind seems to be a harsh inner voice or self-image, and the speaker quietly cleans up after it, then slips out "into my own doubt."

The two "blanket" lines, comfort and suffer, suggest the speaker can't tell the difference between what soothes them and what hurts them. Then the questions pile up, and the body starts to feel fragile: dizziness, cold feet, the sense of bones cracking. The line "my weight is weighing me down" turns the speaker's worry about weight into something heavy and almost drowning.

The ending is the most striking part. The words "do / i / eat / today?" fall one by one down the page, as if even this small choice is slow and frightening. The mood is anxious, exhausted, and trapped, with no easy answer offered.

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