sUnShInE — Summary

The number you have dialed does not exist I sit calmly as my soul continues to violently scream for you I've tried running to you but pride holds me hostage My fears and insecurities keep in a bondage Right next to all the words I should've said Never have I know a love like this Correction Never will I know a love like this A love that waited patiently for me to grow up

A love that lifted me up and showed me the ropes

Because whenever I had your hand to hold

I was shinning baby girl I was gold

I used to think the sunset was beautiful Back when I was with you still But now every time I set my eyes on it I can feel the pain coming over me I can feel the tears falling down my cheeks I see the red that covers the skies It used to symbolise love But now it just makes me cry Sometimes I think of running back to you And tell you nothing is impossible And I was made to be holding you

And you would tell me that you love me too But...

I've been hurt way too many times And I hurt you twice as much You have cried way too many nights And my sadness you have caused a bunch I remember a time when the sunset symbolised our triumph over the day How our love had lived a day longer but now I just see the darkness that is about to befall us

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Nkazimulo's "Sunshine" is the voice of someone who has lost a great love and knows it was partly their own fault. The opening line, "The number you have dialed does not exist," suggests the speaker can no longer reach the person, while pride, fear and unsaid words keep them stuck in place. They correct themselves mid-thought: they will never know a love like this again. The beloved is remembered as patient and supportive, someone who made the speaker feel "gold."

The sunset is the poem's main image. It once stood for love and shared triumph over the day. Now the red sky brings tears, and by the end it only hints at darkness coming. The speaker imagines running back and hearing "I love you too," but the "But..." cuts that hope off. They admit they hurt the other person badly. The mood is regretful, raw and quietly hopeless, with guilt running through the longing.

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