I Can Still Feel — Poem analysis

Your image is always before me I never see it clearly I see flashes and glimpses of what I think is love but their mirrored images hiding in the dust I can see you standing before me hidden in the shade never seeing never being I can never see your face I can feel the warmth you send me I can feel your love radiate I can feel it surround me but it doesn't drive the darkness away is it because your not near me is it because your not real is it because I'm thinking to much is it because I'm afraid to feel I keep walking but I never get that close I keep reaching but there's nothing there to hold I can smell your skin and almost see your smile there's a voice I hear calling it's a miles away or is that just the way it sounds I wish you were before me not just in my dreams always seeing always being wishing I could see your face I can feel the warmth you send me I can feel your love radiate I can feel it surround me but it doesn't drive the darkness away is it because your not near me is it because your not real is it because I'm thinking to much is it because I'm afraid to feel I long to meet the women who comes to me in my dreams the one who comforts me the one who holds me the one who lets me know that love is still real the one that lets me know that yes, I can still feel.

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Sight is the one sense that fails the speaker of "I Can Still Feel." Everything else seems to work. He can feel warmth, smell skin, hear a voice, even sense love "radiate" and "surround" him. Only the face stays hidden: "I never see it clearly," "I can never see your face." That imbalance drives the whole poem. Love is present to the body and the heart, but it won't take shape in front of him, and the speaker cannot tell whether that is because the woman is far away, because she is imaginary, or because he is holding himself back.

The imagery builds around this gap between feeling and seeing. At the start there are only "flashes and glimpses," and the figure is "hidden in the shade." The phrase "mirrored images / hiding in the dust" is the strangest and most interesting. Dust is a poor surface for reflecting anything, so the picture suggests copies of copies, a memory or hope blurred by repetition. The central paradox arrives in the refrain: the warmth he feels "doesn't drive the darkness away." Warmth normally comes with light, and here the two have come apart. He is comforted but not able to see, and the poem lives in that uneasy middle.

The poem's structure is built from repetition, which gives it the feel of a song lyric or a chant. The refrain ("I can feel the warmth you send me…") appears twice, almost word for word, with the same four questions each time. Those questions all begin "is it because," and they move from outside causes ("not near me," "not real") to inner ones ("thinking to much," "afraid to feel"). The speaker slowly turns the blame inward. Other phrases circle back too. "Never seeing / never being" in the first half becomes "always seeing / always being" later. That shift turns a complaint into a wish, though the grammar is loose enough to leave open whose seeing and being he means. The verbs of pursuit, "I keep walking," "I keep reaching," show him stuck in an effort that never pays off, since "there's nothing there to hold."

Formally, the poem is free verse. The short, plain lines have no steady metre and sound like speech, often like thoughts spoken as they arrive. There is almost no punctuation until the very end, and the unpolished spelling and grammar ("your not near me," "thinking to much") add to the impression of an unedited, confessional voice. Rhyme is mostly absent, which makes the few echoes stand out: "near me," "surround me," "send me" keep the focus on the speaker's own position. The most important chime is saved for the close. The fourth question asks "is it because your not real… afraid to feel," and the final lines answer with "love is still real" and "I can still feel." The question's two rhyme words return as an affirmation.

The ending is an answer of a kind, but not the one the questions were fishing for. He never learns whether the woman exists. The "one who comforts me, the one who holds me" stays a figure from his dreams. What he gets instead is proof from the other side: the fact that he can feel is evidence enough that love is real. The word "still" in the title and last line hints at earlier numbness or hurt, though the poem gives no details, and I would only call that an inference from the wording. The comma and full stop in the final line are the poem's first real punctuation, so the long run of unanswered questions finally settles.

That is where the poem's strength lies. It is simple and unguarded, and it understands that longing can be a form of hope. Its speaker is not rescued by a person arriving but by recognising that he is still capable of wanting, and of feeling, at all. For a reader his age or younger, the poem makes a quiet point: sometimes the first sign of healing is the ability to ache again.

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