Susovan speaks directly to someone who has been hurt by loss so often that they've built a wall around themselves. The speaker sees what that person is doing: pretending not to care, telling themselves they're used to people leaving. But the poem points out the cost. This kind of protection doesn't stop the pain, it only "numbs you." The repeated "push and push and push" suggests someone testing the people around them, driven by fear of being abandoned again.
Then the tone shifts. The confession of love grows more intense with each line, building to the blunt, broken-up "i. love. you.", where each word lands on its own. The speaker doesn't deny how hard this has been, naming the pain, the tears and the lonely nights. Still, the answer is steady: "i am still staying, forever." The mood is raw, tender and stubborn, a promise made to someone who has learned not to believe promises, and the repetition of "pushing" echoes right up to the final vow.