I am Still Here — Summary

the sun does rise tomorrow and the world sings with alarm clocks and morning news and cities burst to life and i am still here. even when i haven't wanted to be. still locking up in my own room not having the capability to differ the hour, days, and dates everytime the sun came up would always be a morning everytime the sun goes down would always be a night barely cared about looking at the calendar to tell the date monday or sunday didn't make any difference whatsoever retreated to this solitary state that i am in put aside my cell away let the battery died and kept the phone on the nightstand completely forgotten sitting slump on the couch look up at the ceiling that had grown to familiar with painting the black splotches and slight cracks on them by the heart staring blankly at the TV screen looking back at my own reflection not doing anything significant and felt the two hours as mere minutes doing nothing but sleep and get some peace are the activities i had by now

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Taelintt's "I am Still Here" is about a stretch of time when depression, or something close to it, flattens life into a blur. The opening lines set the world in motion, with alarm clocks, morning news and busy cities, and then set the speaker against it: "and i am still here." The admission that follows, "even when i haven't wanted to be," is the quietest and heaviest line in the poem.

From there, the speaker describes shutting themselves in. Days and dates lose meaning, a dead phone sits forgotten on the nightstand, and the ceiling's cracks become familiar company. Even the TV only gives back their own reflection. Two hours feel like minutes, and sleep is the only thing that brings relief.

The mood is numb, tired and still, and the plain, unpunctuated lines make time feel like it has stopped. Yet the title matters: simply being "still here" carries a small, fragile persistence.

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