“…a greater weight in the region of her heart.” — Poem analysis

Gathered together beneath the clear plastic canopy of a deformed & leafless tree, the elderly & the mentally inadequate stand & wait in the 12:30 rain

of a blue-grey Summer without sun.

we are

the intricate accidents

unfolding within the periphery of your vision

The number 52 bus arrives, & leading our small procession of damaged people-things, is the Carer attending to his temporary children;

careful to shepherd them safely to their seats he fails to notice me & gently we collide…

this man is in possession of the happiest eyes

& the saddest smile that I have ever seen

He says:

“Sorry! Sorry, sorry.”

as if it were his life’s refrain.

I say:

“No, no, it’s fine…”

but my mumbled reply doesn’t reach him, his concentration is for better things for the people other people secretly wish were not there to see…

because the broken things bear witness to an unbearable weakness;

to all of the ungracious, hidden little pieces within us:

they are the uncanny light in the eyes of other Apes,

they are the inevitable smell of piss & the trembling lips

of old age,

they are the mucus that runs down your philtrum

when you cry.

We are the flat & hollow sensation of every planned occasion that has failed us.

The number 52 bus returns to movement, & before I fall into my seat, before he spills into his there is between us a silent, complicit pact:

a pathetic, futile, beautiful act of defiance against the endless, fucking desperate tragedy

of living as an animal haunted by words in a world that does not care at all.

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A bus stop in the rain becomes, over the course of this poem, a small theatre of everything people prefer not to look at. The scene is almost comically bleak: a group of "the elderly & the mentally inadequate" sheltering under a "clear plastic canopy" beside "a deformed & leafless tree," in a "blue-grey Summer without sun." The tree is leafless in summer, so even the season has gone wrong, and the landscape seems to share the condition of the people waiting beneath it. The poem's central idea emerges when the speaker accidentally bumps into a carer helping his charges onto the number 52 bus. A tiny moment of contact grows into an argument about what it means to be fragile, animal and aware of it.

The opening description is deliberately cold. "Mentally inadequate" is the kind of phrase a form might use, not a person, and "damaged people-things" goes further, with its hyphen fusing person and object. The poem is imitating the way the world sees these people. Then the register turns. In a short, isolated passage the voice says "we are / the intricate accidents / unfolding within the periphery of your vision." The speaker now sits among the "damaged," and the word "your" turns on the reader, who is cast as someone who only glimpses such lives from the corner of the eye. The layout reinforces this, with the lines placed apart from the stanzas around them, like something half-noticed.

The carer is the poem's most vivid figure. He has "the happiest eyes" and "the saddest smile," a pairing that holds joy and sorrow in one face. His apology, "Sorry! Sorry, sorry," is described "as if it were his life's refrain," and the speaker's reply, "No, no, it's fine…", is mumbled and never reaches him. The failed communication matters. His attention belongs to "better things," and the speaker is left with the sense of having glimpsed something without being able to answer it. The phrase "temporary children" is sharp too: it hints at how these adults are treated as dependants, and at the impermanence of the care itself.

The middle of the poem is its harshest stretch. The broken, the speaker says, "bear witness to an unbearable weakness," and the poem lists the details we hide: "the uncanny light in the eyes of other Apes," "the inevitable smell of piss & the trembling lips / of old age," "the mucus that runs down your philtrum / when you cry." The clinical word "philtrum," the groove beneath the nose, sits oddly beside the crude and the bodily. It makes the reader look closely at something usually ignored, and it makes crying as undignified as incontinence. "Apes" strips away human pride, and the capital letter makes it a category we all belong to. The sentence "We are the flat & hollow sensation of every planned occasion that has failed us" then gathers everyone, speaker included, into one shared disappointment.

Formally, the poem is free verse with no rhyme, and its rhythm follows speech and feeling rather than a pattern. The ampersands give it a hurried, notebook-like texture. Quoted dialogue is set apart on its own lines, so the small human exchange stands out. The ending, though, is where the form does its real work. Just as the bus moves off, the speaker and the carer share "a silent, complicit pact," which the poem calls "a pathetic, futile, beautiful act / of defiance." That triple of adjectives refuses to settle on consolation or despair. Then the lines fall apart: "a world that / does / not / care / at all." Each word gets its own line, so the indifference arrives slowly. The swearing in "fucking desperate" breaks the controlled tone just before that collapse.

The title, "wordsforghosts," and the final image of "an animal / haunted by words" seem to point the same way. Humans are the creatures who can name their own suffering and mortality, and that is both our burden and our only response. The epigraph about "a greater weight in the region of her heart" is given without a source, but it suggests the same idea of grief carried physically.

What makes the poem significant is that it declines to flatter anyone. It does not make the vulnerable saintly or the speaker heroic. It finds meaning in a brief, wordless acknowledgment between two strangers, and it insists that this is worth something even in a world that "does not care."

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