you made my hopes go
up
higher than I could ever get on my own.
but they never came back down
and you left me all alone.
as you and your friends
walked and laughed away
my hopes are still in the clouds
because they, and I
think you'll come back someday.
you stay up
all night
trying to convince
that stranger over the internet
across the seas,
or maybe even your best friend
across the street,
not to hurt themselves,
or die tonight,
but they never question
if you're alright.
so once you convince them
to not cut or commit suicide,
you're back in your room
questioning your own life.
Everyday
Im afraid
That everyone will leave me.
I know I'm not the nicest
Prettiest
Smartest
But I love my friends.
I don't want pity
I'm fine by myself
I just like company
I don't want to be a charity case
I don't want you to think I'm a sorry face
But everyday I worry
That you'll leave me
Sad and sorry.
I want to have fun
Go out with people
Do crazy shit
And not regret it.
I want good friends
People who bring good vibes
And fun times
One or two "ride or dies"
I want a good laugh
When I'm in my darkest moments
Corny jokes and childish puns
Keep me happy till the morning sun.
But most of all I want love
Not just a one night stand
A ride or die, bubbly, fun person.
It's be nice if they could cook too.
You wanna know what's love
That morning text saying good morning
Just to see if you're still breathing
Or if you're alive and well and can make it to dinner in the evening
Roles reversed those same people will forget about you
Eating dinner without you
Never even sending a text, cause they busy
Asking why aren't you
They forget, open your text and close the phone
You thinking about double texting but nope let me just leave it alone
Come to find out the next morning they're not answering the phone
Maybe I should've sent another text
Because now I'm reading on the news, how you're dead and gone
She sat there with
A smile on her face
As she watched the girl
Act with such grace
She watched the girl laugh
Music to her ears
She watched her with admiration
More than her peers
They were friends
Thats what everyone knew
A group with equal attention
A group of few
But she saw her as more
As different from the rest
She saw her as greater
The best of the best
the clock on her wrist makes the ticking sound she loves so much as she walks home in the dark
she's happy
she had a fun time for once
a fun time with her friend that never has the time to hang out with her because she has other, now closer friends
she cares for her,
but they both know that their paths aren't as close as they were
but she's happy and she won't let that get to her
not now,
the clock on her wrist makes the ticking sound she loves so much as she walks home in the dark
she's happy
she had a fun time for once
a fun time with her friend that never has the time to hang out with her because she has other, now closer friends
she cares for her,
Why me
We talked all day
Didn't lose hope
On our bad days
Kept each other
Company at home
And sometimes
I would stay
Knelt together
Just to pray
I asked what words
I would tell my crush
When i didn't have
Words to say
Lay in the grass
To find our matching
I lost a friend
who could have been more
if distance wasn't so long
if she hadn't gotten so sore
every classic song
every shell at sea
did I think of her
as much as she thought of me?
would it have been different
if I tried a little harder
prayed a little more
said thank you to her father
could it have been better?
I don't think so
even if she weren't at her end
I'd still have to let go
I miss her.
I miss them all.
My happiness for seeing those who they become
Is challenged by my sorrow for the loss of those who they were
I miss me.
I miss us all.
I will fight for you all
Until there remains in me none of the light that you created
Stay with me please.
They said they were her friends
They said they cared for her
She said that she was lonely
They said they were the cure
She trusted them more
More and more each day
She almost opened up
But then they went away
They made plans without her
They didn't notice when she wept
They secretly talked about her
They didnt notice when she left
She considered leaving forever
She continued to stay quiet
She considered coming back never
She continued to cry silent
You thought we were friends, I thought we were more
So it's not your fault that my heart is sore
I guess I just thought you felt the same way
I should've asked you and saved us this day
You want us to be friends not anything more
I don't think I can, not just as before
Don't worry about me I will be just fine
And don't feel guilty, the mistake was mine.