and my dear she knows pain
she knows it so well
and then you had the audacity
to ask
why she's afraid to love.
now I'm broken like I was before
broken
on the tiled floor
I can't eat
I can't sleep
when I'm just thinking
about how you hurt me
You see.
that little sting you feel
everytime you see me in pain
that's guilt hun
and you caused that.
I'm still breathing
after everything
My depression is hitting me hard these days
And only you could take away the pain
But now you're with another
And I'm just another second hand lover
She pushed away her feelings
Blocking the world from her hurt soul
The fresh and tender sores of her heart
Because she had gotten hurt too many times to let just anybody in
Maybe that's why people thought she was heartless
When honestly
She was only just hidden and still beating more than anybody would know
She smiled and laughed to numb her pain
But just like all medicine
It wore off eventually
You see the smile
You see the tear
But not the anger
And not the fear
The milk's been spilt
The fish has died
But yet you ask
If I'm alright
You offer me a helping hand
A shoulder here for leaning
But sadly you do not realise
That I don't really want it
To know how I truly feel
A mile has to be completed
In my size 8 flip-flops
When you have size 9 feet
every pain in life is art
i just have the wrong brushes
or a shaky hand
How do I stop the pain?
Do I take a knife and slit my throat
Do I cut my self-till the pain dulls away?
How about hanging myself on my celling fan
Or shooting all my bullies
Oh wait ive got the answer
I’ll just pop another pill
Drown myself in the bathtub
Do I jump of the nearest bridge?
Or throw myself in front of a speeding car
NO THOSE ARE NOT THE ANSWERS
I’ll get help that’s what I’ll do
I’ll tell some no good therapist
My sorry ass story
How I hate my life
How nobody truly understands me
With tears In her eyes she smiled in the mirror
You're a strong one, you fell but got up
Although right now
I don't know how much longer you can keep it up
And her smile dies down while she holds the blade to her wrist