their eyes dimmed
and one cried while the other huffed and another just kept staring
like waiting for my Sooby-Doo mask to come off
maybe two or three more times
before i'm back to being me
but
when will people finally understand
promises are just empty words
and all of them were just
temporary fill-ins
you broke my trust
not with a hammer
but with the million itty bitty splinters
you pushed into my skin
with that twinkling laugh
you tell me your secrets
and all i say back are lies
don't trust me when i say we're best friends
or we wear matching necklaces
or i say i'd rather spend time with you than anyone else
because nothing lasts forever and
love can be
faked
unrequited
empty
I dont understand
Why people seporate,
How people deal with their selves if they upset someone,
how a person could just disappear.
But most of all
how a dad could stop talking to his baby girl
why people can get so upset
who would care more about their girlfriend than their kid
What i understand most is
who i can trust
how hard it is for kids who's dads are gone
who really would do most to stay with me
where I should really be
I maybe not perfect
But I will do my best
If something went wrong
Just come & tell me.
If I may say no
That means I protected you
& We can talk about.
If I may say yes
That means I know what's good enough
Not the best.
If I can't like your partner
That means I've seen something suspicious
& We can talk.
If your upset about me, friends & love
Come near me
& Talk about
Were we friends? More than friends?
I never questioned until you left.
What's the definition of best friend?
Make me understand.
I need you to talk to me like we used to.
Am I going overboard?
I don't know if your lover thinks of you
but I miss you like crazy.
I thought my memories were long gone.
I felt stupid for that.
Never did I know, they were hidden
All deep down inside me.
I envy everyone with their best friends
Are they all the same like us?
Were you true to me? I got trust issues.
None were real. Did you ?
Attachments bring disappointments
Always see who you are trusting
With your friendship
Giving them power to ruin you
With your love
Giving them power to destroy you
With your emotions
Givings them power to leave you scarred forever
With your secrets
Giving them power to overpower you
With your tears
Giving them power to hurt you
With your smile
Giving them power to make your day
With your dreams
Giving them power to break it anytime
you know me best
you've passed the test
you've handled the mood swings and the constant sensitivity.
you've handled my family that even i can't.
when times get tough, you hold my hand
you whisper "i've got you"
and that's all i need.
you.
some thoughts are better left unsaid,
some thoughts are special enough that i think
if i were to share them to the wrong person
i'd spend my life, trying to get that thought back.
I missed my alarms and slept in,
I have had people in dreams,
The friendly kind, but weird they existed,
I would rather keep my mind shut,
Than open the doors to my home
My mind is my mansion,
It only becomes a home when I walk in,
Open the doors,
“Give them you heart and trust”
Excuse me what did you say?
My heart and trust?
The purse and luxury is their pursuit,
Not my heart and trust,
The walls protecting my mansion are high up,
I would like to keep that way,
Is it me or the fear talking?
Instead of pointing out
why my way is wrong
you should see
in what way my way excels
when you have, come back to me
and then I will tell you...
I told you so