I am still searching
Always will
Not for you
But the piece of myself
I gave to you
This silence is turning me deaf
This darkness has me feeling blind
Being with you
Has me loosing all of my sense
I fear that in this cursed world
My kindness is fading
And I am becoming complacent
I have been feeling
Lost lately
Something is missing
My soul is searching
But for what?
It hurt sometimes
I can't take it
I have been in a loosing fight
But I am trying to hide
With my smile
Even though my skin is crawling
And the blood is in my fingernails
I pretend to laugh at what you say
I recognise your face
But your hands don't feel safe
I told you last night what happened
I told you about that fight
I cut my hair off with a blade
To erase all the traces of that girl
I couldn't feel clean in my own skin
So i burnt it off
(Just to torture myself)
An angel that cut through the sky
Every time i think
I am healed,
I remember
Who I used to be
~magnificent
I wept over you
I screamed for you
And laughed and laughed
When you walked away
Her bedroom wall was covered
With pictures of dead pop stars.
Some had died in aeroplanes,
Some had died in cars,
Some at the end of a needle,
Some at the end of a gun.
From today’s paper she cut out a picture,
And pinned up the latest one.
Your glory was but fleeting,
You never made Number One,
And she did not know your name
Till you pulled the trigger of your gun.
I'm the cause
Without a doubt
I'm the cause
I'm the reason
I can't eat
I can't sleep
I can't breathe
I'm not happy
The reason I hurt
Say meaningless words
Don't be weak
Don't be a slob
Be tough like a guy
But dress like a girl
Act like a child
But always be mature
When I cry tears of diamond
He collects and begs for more
When I bleed wounds of ruby
He ushers me to his door
When I cry out for refuge
He laughs at every word
When I beg him to aid me
My pleas seem not to be heard
When darkness coats my vision
I know he's finally done
My struggles and pain are over
For Death has eternally won
An iron wall seems so strong
Invincible to all
But the wall rusts with time
And soon will simply fall
Because, you see, this wall
Is strong all on its own
But when the world comes down
Its weaknesses are shown
There comes a time when strong
Turns into something low
There comes a time when fear
Is all you ever know
I was once iron strong
Standing against my pain
But pain conquered the wall
And this is where I'm lain
Im everyone's shoulder to lean on,
Im their hero,
Their soldier,
But who's there to save me,
After i saved all of them.