i always tend to feel
that i'm not
good enough
for anyone
and sometimes,
most of the time
i admit that.
-you can say that
to me straight in the face
and i may not argue back
why did you
always saying
such a hurtful things to me,
not knowing
i always
cry about that
at night.
do you ever just missing someone,
but with a different situation?
you miss someone who was already gone,
and you miss someone,who was still here but you just cant do anything about it?
i dont know what hurts more between those two
i think the idea of missing someone itself already tearing me apart,
i was lost.
at the end of the day,
you still tend to
push me away
and build a wall
between us.
and i will
always be
the one
who loves more.
i'm so tired of fighting alone.
and sometimes,
most of the time,
i just need you to fight this with me too.
-as if he loves me
my fragile heart,
i rather have a glass broke to me
than having my heart broke.
atleast i know how to heal it,
and the pain,i could bear it.
the pain is temporary,
i could still stand strong
and i could hold my tears
but if it comes to you,
i'm not the same.
i'm too fragile,
everything seems blurry and slow.
and i'm the weakest.
you want
to heal him
so
who wants to heal me?
i dont simply
let anyone
into my life
but when i did
they decide
to take out every single pieces of me
and destroyed it
i was left
unwanted
feeling like
i deserved
all the bad things
in this cruel yet
people said
meaningful world
i was left
everyday
i pray that we're right for each other,
i really do.
but now,we drifted apart.
and till now
i try my best to accept
that you're just not right for me,
eventhough it's hard.
there are many ways to say goodbye,
ours was to not say it at all,
and that's what hurts the most.
we just left each other,
we just cut off from each other,
and
i dont even get to say things i wanted to say the most.
after all,thank you for everything,
the happiest and the toughest moments.
i never thought that,
you were just my another lesson.
i know that
she's way better than me in talking sweet
she's way better to show that she was caring enough
she's way more daring
& always talk fun things
she friends with your best friends
she has the same favourite genres as you
& she knows a lot of songs you like.
meanwhile me,
i'm no way of all those things.
but i listened to every songs you like
i lost him
we all lost him.