One moment,
Two meanings.
One incident,
Two feelings.
Two bodies,
One heart.
Two smiles,
One dark.
One cut,
Two inflictions.
One massacre,
Two victims.
Two deaths,
One day.
Two coffins,
One grave.
One, maybe two,
Hands moving themselves,
I'll do a few.
A crimson trail,
Of lines inflicted,
By my past.
A long sleeved jumper,
Averted eyes,
False smiles.
A mistake,
A forgotten memory,
Shouldn't roam.
I tell myself,
Repeatedly,
I'm just alone.
Don't talk,
Missing from 'home',
Parents searching.
Can't look back,
Now I'm running.
Sirens in the distance,
Calling me there.
I grin at the pitiful,
Attempt at care.
I don't give a damn,
If they say they love me.
When all is dark,
Their true feeling I see.
And I know I can't,
Go telling people.
Why do they need,
To see how I weaken?
Fists,
Beating,
My back.
Parent,
Continues,
To attack.
Mother,
Runs,
Away.
Father,
Continues,
The pain.
And then,
It's over,
They smile.
Offer me,
Blinded and stumbling,
Grabbing anything,
Dragging everything,
Onto the ground.
Laughter echoing,
Voices whispering,
Drowning out everything,
In this small town.
Broken and shattered,
Mind doing cartwheels,
A hand to hold onto,
Is nowhere to be found.
A sweet embrace,
My last mistake,
A comforting smile,
A deathly grip.
A single rose,
Buried,
In her hair.
The scent,
Of blood,
Tainting the air.
Her last words,
Fleeting,
From her mouth.
She's free from worries,
Fear,
And doubt.
Her soul can wander,
Forever,
Hopelessly lost.
Her body,
Red,
Black,
White.
Blood,
Ash,
Flesh.
Maroon,
Crimson,
Scarlet.
Shades of,
Vampiric,
Dessert.
Charred,
Burned,
Blacken.
Shades of,
Hurt,
Blinding my senses.
Throwing me into,
Total confusion.
Should I be sad,
Or should I smile?
What emotion,
Should I show.
What facial gestures,
Must I make.
Happiness is so much,
Easier to fake.
Is this good,
Or is this bad?
Do such terms exist,
In this universe.
Torture,
Madness.
Crazy,
Sadness.
Mind,
Wandering,
Thoughts,
Prolonging.
Contemplating,
Life.
Regretting,
Lies.
Holding,
Secrets.
Holding back,
Tears.
Stabbing,
A corpse.
Burying,
A zombie.
Sleeping,
Through day.
Hurling,
Abuse.
Fighting,
Yourself.
Remembering,
Regrets.
Forgetting,
Tomorrow.
Hating,
Ghosts.
A smile,
Easy to fake,
Bringing pain,
For others gain.
A tear,
Built over years,
Full of hurt,
And worldly fears.
A fight,
Just for show,
To make others know,
Of your might.
A death,
A reason to dress,
Acting a mess,
Not really affected.
Shaking uncontrollably,
Trembling in fear.
I inflict another,
Blinded by tears.
Please stop giving,
Useless advice.
Reasons to create,
More scars to hide.
Shivering and crying,
Suddenly I stop.
The world goes blurry,
Paralysed with shock.
Family members,
Gathered around.
Someone's coffin,
Lowered into the ground.