In my utopia, you are mine.
You kiss me, for I have never been kissed before.
You store me in your arms, as if you are protecting me.
You take my hand, and run with me into the woods.
You take me deep into the forest, as you spill your deepest secrets.
We almost arrived to the end before you stopped.
My utopia began to fade grey.
Your last secret makes it fade black.
"I don't love you."
My utopia is broken,
And so is my heart.'
Seeing you and drowning are about the same
Your love is a weapon but you've used it all wrong
The dagger of your love has made my scars
The punch of hearts has made my bruises
The shot of touch wounds my chest
Leave your weapons unhinged and just love me
Eyes stare at eyes.
Unless it's you and I,
Then all I see is your back.
You left me behind.
We're the new face of failure.
Our love is like the moon,
For when something better and brighter shows up,
We always fall.
Our envious love cannot shine brighter than the glorious sun.
Sinful wishes upon the night make us wish for another life.
I wish I would've never met you,
And I could've been a part of the day.
All the stars in our love cannot match others, as they are far more true and bright.
You're name isn't Joshua,
But I'm using it to disguise you.
Joshua is a name used to describe a generous person,
But I'm disguising you.
And when you disguise something,
You make it different than what it actually is.
So I'm asking you to please,
Joshua,
Take it away.
My heart rarely sleeps
But when it does it is with dreams
Dreams of nightmares haunting
Haunting of you and the things we said
Because nightmares are dreams that forgot to fall asleep
Fall asleep to forget
Fall asleep for relief
Some hearts need the sleep
To get away from grief
Grief leaving you wondering
Like some rumored secret
But things left alone or told
Are better than thoughts unknown
Unspoken dreams from hearts
Is almost exactly as a nightmare
My love for this is just a hoax
My eyes were for you
but your eyes were for another.
You were staring across the room
gazing at each other.
From that moment on
my heart was hard as stone.
You made me realize
that I was meant to be alone
I was your cigarette
and you were my lighter.
You lit me up and burned me.
The touch of your spark
made me feel so alive.
With each breath and blow,
you would take a piece of me with you
and let it go
just as fast as you consumed me.
I would relax you and calm you down.
But I was fading away. I was deteriorating.
My ashes were becoming one
with the rubble beneath your feet.
And after you’ve finished me off,
there was nothing left of me.
You threw me away.
You told me you loved me,
but your eyes were empty.
You told me you loved me,
but you were staring across the room.
You told me you loved me,
but your voice gave in.
You told me you loved me,
but you just didn’t.
I told you I loved you,
and I looked into your eyes.
You knew it, I knew it,
At least one of them was true.
"How are you", she questioned.
"Fine", he asserted.
Sleepless nights and helpless tears said otherwise.
I once had my head in the clouds
So far up I'd feel the sun reach out and warm my face.
My eyes would sparkle and glint and play
Life was sweet and good and full of grace.
And then
You changed me.
Swallowed me whole like a snake does its prey.
I sat, and shook in this new, rank darkness.
Pain, what are you doing here? This is not your home.
Run along, run away! Put down that fire!
My very soul begins to burn.
Love, where have you gone?
Or are you here already, sitting in this dark garden next to me
and is this just you showing that really all you are is just a lie
and everything I dreamed about will abandon me and die?
Oh, poor, sick, hungry love.
Nobody will know your reasons
Nobody will know your past
Nobody will ever know anything about you
If you ever only speak to nobody