I am not a weak link for I am already broken
I cannot be mended for I am not steel
Nor am i silver, for I am not worth so much
I am not gold for I will not be missed
And I am far from a ruby,
As i do not shine
I am more like dirt, trod on and left behind
You can find me everywhere yet
Nowhere, at the same time
I am no one but everyone, Everything but nothing
I am full yet empty
I am not brave or wise
I am more like a jester
Silly and blind
I am loved when needed then
Thrown aside
Watch the clouds go by
Listen to the birds sing
sit there and cry
because you cant do a thing
My lies are my sword and shield.
The truth brings me fear.
Yet I accept it,
Don't change it,
And cry.
I help others find it.
In my own stupid way.
I tel them the truth.
While my feelings hide away.
I'm a mess
I'm depressed
I'm tired
And done
Why am I here?
I want to die
I wish I could drink beer
So I could better lie
So I could tell them I'm fine
Where they can't read between the lines
To see the truth that I'm hurt
Let me die please...
I take my happy heart and give it to others
Then, like vampires, they suck the happy out
When it's drained, they give it back
Then I must refill it again
I let others take my cheerful thoughts for their needs
They take until they're gone
I have to restock
restart
I let others drain me
'Til I'm empty
I give but don't take
They take but don't give
That is how I live
I gave you roses
you would let them die
I was already knew
I set the fire to our rain
And let it burned on your hand
I was romantically hopeless to you
You told me to fly away
to find my own stars
as if I find my whole self
You left in between the time
and the distance
Little did you know
the whole of me was resting in your eyes
I cried
as the hourglass mocking me
pouring down
turning empty
I ran out of time
My only companion is a shadow
So wispy and bare
He lies there beside me
Hollow and hollow
You ask why I am in the dark?
It is where I can find him
He is always there in the dark
Not the Devil, mind but...
Truth, cold bitter truth
That he is my only man
That he is my only ally
Blood is hidden in black
That is why I curse the light
For it's a murderer
Goodbye friend
My only friend
I worry about what you would say if you seen me.
I worry about how you may be feeling today.
I wonder how you are doing in school, because I'm not there to help you.
Life was taking from me that day I left you. I do love you!
I miss you more and more each day that goes by.
I held you in my body for nine months, felt you flitter around in my womb.
I held you close when dreams was too much to bare.
You was my light with no despair.
I will wait for you,
You will come.
I'm sorry will spill over and over.
No words can take back what I took from you.
I wonder if you still love me,
DO YOU??
He doesn't smile at me like he used too
He doesn't enjoy our time together anymore
He doesn't save my pictures, not even the best ones.
In the beginning he was who I wanted and he showed me that he wanted me, but now
I feel like he doesn't care
As if I was a piece of plastic that he found and kept until he found a recycling bin
As if this was a game for him
Who can crumble the other first?
Who can pin the mess on the problem?
There's not much more I can give him.
I've given him my trust, love and loyalty.
The younger me would look and be disgusted with myself today
After all the insults, lies and manipulation
I don't know how long I can fight for a future that doesn't have a chance to survive.
I remember your touch warm as fire.
I can remember your voice soft and calm.
I can remember my love for you strong as I can be.
I remember the places you would tell me about. As far as the minds eye would let me see.
I remember crying out for help, and seeing you.
But it's only memories, a time lost only in my mind.
I try to give that warm touch to others like you did for me.
I speak with a voice quiet and sweet.
I show people that it's okay to love still.
I tell the people of places I have never truly seen with my eyes,
but instead with me heart.
I listen to those who cry out for help and being there for them to see.
I do this to be closer to thee.
No offense, but I always looked for mother
figures in other women.