i recall fearing about when a girl would soon capture you're heart.
so that i couldn't reach it ever again.
it was so difficult to not tell you that.
"should i tell him?"
i constantly asked myself everyday i was dropped back home.
it clouded my head like fog on a street.
just everywhere.
until you spoke to me about it.
and how ,
"that's never going to happen."
Mirror, Mirror,
I see you.
Mirror, Mirror,
But you look right through.
Mirror, Mirror,
I know you're there.
Mirror, Mirror,
There's darkness in the air.
One step closer.
Nobody would care,
Nobody knows her.
A light you can't see.
No one knows her but me,
As long as knowing yourself counts.
The roads are long.
They lead to nowhere,
So I guess it's a good thing I don't know where I'm going.
The bridge was high,
And the water deep.
Just one more step...
Aren't you afraid?
Of the judgmental people...
With staring eyes
And silent thoughts
That soon become whispers
Voices of hush
Words of verdict
That you'll never hear
Leave you curious
Memory is triangular
Like frames that melt in flames
We burn to fight a cold, cold winter.
Night brings strange insects
Feeds her anxiety
Moths plan a mass suicide
Inside her mind. The windows are blur.
The humming pine winds set the score
The rain was always a part of the plan.
Until a coal truck slides and falls over
As she finally flies.
(And all our love-
Hate games
Unread letters,
And scores
Settled
I'm sick of it.
That voice inside my head
Whispering insecurities
Strangling me with tears and silent cries that I refuse to let out
For fear of being weak
I didn't make a sound
And when I did
It almost killed me!
That voice inside my head
It makes a valid case
It backs it up
It listens to other people
It brings their testimonies to the trial
But they're not under oath
The truth is the witnesses are ciminals that just want to look les guilty
But that doesn't matter
I tied it up and
heaved it onto the grooved bed
of a maroon Ford pickup,
hit the gas and
roared into the gleaming night.
The night roared back
or so I thought
with oblique animal rage
twisting moonlight
into words and
words into near-miss
car collisions.
I think it is mad at me
because I forgot to
remove my bullet
from that stranger’s shoulder
i should be use to this.
i should be use to the stamped.
i should be use to the giggling.
i should be use to the kisses and hugs.
i should be use to the happiness and joy.
but since i have not felt them in so long it feels foreign.
it shouldn't.
but it does.
and even though i do have the love now that I've wanted for long,
i just can't help but feel that it's all fake.
that it'll go away when i least expect it.
i shouldn't feel this way, but i do.
i do, i do, i do.
maybe I'm just being paranoid.
but maybe i'm, just maybe I'm right.
Through the summer night
Soft noises flutter about.
The moon shines against the night sky
And into her room.
She stared blankly at the ceiling as
Images and pointless thoughts
consumed her mind in
Merciless torture.
Her nights have been like this
For as long as she could remember...
She just wishes she could sleep without the
Aid of a drug, or a
Natural suppliment....
I'm lost in space
I'm locked in a box
I can't open up my mind
It's just hard for me to see reality
I have a soft heart
I'm innocent as a child can be
My face is full of questions
"Am I being right, am I being wrong?"
Dirty, but not pure
Pure, but not dirty
How can I choose between the two?
I'm tired of thinking innocently
I'm so naive
I don't even know people are like this
I'm too young for this
I can't take it no more
As a child,
I was scared,
I was stupid,
And I only thought about myself.
I always played fun games as a child,
Like watch TV,
Draw or color,
Or play outside.
When it got dark outside,
I couldn't take a step out of indoors.
I went into my cold bed,
And my parents tucked me in.
They turned off the lights,
Except one tiny light,
Which I never turned away from.
I didn't like the dark.
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