Connect the dots

What am I worth? A dollar? A quarter? A penny? Lately this question has been lingering uninvited. Am I worthy of your love? Am I worthy of any love? I used to seek answers from the one "up above" Now I look within to see that I am nothing. My whole life I've been running. Running from pain, hurt, and loss. And I've never been fast enough. So my backup plan was look strong. I couldn't do that either. I always had to beg, Beg to be held and beg to be comforted. So am I really deserving of raw love, that comes at no cost? I'm just so lost. Trying to connect to dots.