I Give Up. You're Too Much For Me.

Fuck it. I'm sick of staying quiet. Silence is for when I'm hiding something from my family, Not my friends. Just don't make a face or laugh or insult.

Dude, I have a crush on you. Stop talking to me if you want. I don't care. I'm sick of talking and feeling like I'm just annoying you. You give off the 'I hate this' vibe sometimes. Well.... Almost all the time. Sometimes I feel like you don't mind. Like the time I walked over after the math test, And I watched your face change into a smile. Made me feel good, Cause I never feel like the people I'm talking to like me. I figured out why I can't read people, by the way. It's the ADHD. Some of us have more extreme symptoms than others- Pretty sure I have more than I'm supposed to. So anyways. How about it? You want me to stop talking to you now, Or just make myself forget I like you? (I can do that. Trick myself into not having a crush. It's pretty easy. Most of the time)

Alright, I'm just wasting time now. I'll see ya tomorrow. Maybe. Well, I will see you, Since I always look to see if you're in class. I hate it, By the way. You're just a boy- Most people don't even notice you. So why the fuck do I notice? Seriously. I hate being attracted to you. It's harsh, Cause you're more unreadable to me Than a book written in mandarin. Maybe it's how you make me think before I speak, Or how you don't make fun of me for random things I do. Or is it the fact that you'll talk to me, Even though you said you like not talking to people? I give up. Just- Just don't make a face at me. Don't insult me. Don't laugh at me. I don't offend easy, But I do hurt easy. It sucks. Have a good day.