honest

if i was to be honest i'd have very few friends if i was to be honest i'd wouldn't be writing this book i'd have gotten help i'd have been cured if i was to be honest maybe i wouldn't have dealt with the pain of losing people friends family him

if i was to be honest then i want you to know something i get jealous easily i act like an asshole i whine, bitch, and complain i'm imperfect

if i was to be honest i'd have been living a happy life if i was to be honest i'd have been having it all my way if i had been honest i wouldn't be here crying from the inside out

my tortured soul would not be pouring out every word inscribed onto digital paper i'd be happy and not have pain constantly forever roaming around my orbit

if i am to be honest i'm done i want it all the end but i'm too scared to do so, so i've made plans and decided decided only because i'm being honest i'm going to keep on