Creeping Slowly Backwards — Summary

Jeff WolfeAnxious

Precipitation oozes down the windshield – dead eye stare. Jolted back mind. Every previous rainfall strung together, in a flicker past. Present hopelessly lost, replaced by a better picture. Young rain down face. Wish in the memory I wasn't alone to wander street. Thought sent elsewhere when there was someone heard through cold receiver. The chord shackled to wall made for small circles. Crouched on a chair. Pitter-patter down pour settles voice. Innocent needs spoken delay an eventual end. Kept a pure connection. Not so capable anymore. Courage in the quiet - with parents, fast asleep. Crept slowly inside, words along electric wire. Notes passed next day through locker vents. Daylight doesn't forgive. A protection never secured. Drifted off – impulses fearful flurries on dark roads. Left without choice, to plunge past midnight alone. Eventual emergence from forest - cloaked in blackest drip. Found by a stranger to come clean.

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Watching rain slide down a windshield, the speaker is pulled back into the past. Every earlier rainfall seems to flicker by at once, and the present gets replaced by a clearer picture: a lonely young person wandering the street, then sitting crouched on a chair, talking on a phone whose cord is tied to the wall. The sound of rain steadies the voice on the line. In the quiet, with parents asleep, the speaker finds a kind of courage and a "pure connection," spoken in innocent needs.

Then the mood darkens. Daylight "doesn't forgive," and the closeness doesn't last. The final lines suggest a frightening night journey alone, ending with an emergence from the forest "cloaked in blackest drip" and being found by a stranger. The poem doesn't spell out what happened, so the ending feels uneasy and open. Overall the mood is wistful and haunted: tender about early intimacy, but weighed down by loneliness, fear, and something lost that can't be recovered.

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